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[llonebaddayll]

Reading all these entries that i wrote really breaks my heart. It really made me realize how different things are. How many lies i fell for. But inspite of knowing all that, reading those entries i realized how much fun i had. haha i mean me and him were the dorkiest people ever and together we were Donna and Eric( as he would say). Its crazy..sitting here, smiling, reading all of them. It gives me some sort of comfort you know? you cant ever regret things..you cant fall and regret the fly. i dont know what went wrong. i dont know if ill ever know. i just know one thing and in my heart thats all i know that isnt a lie. it seems like what i had i never seemed to have at all. people can think whatever they want too. i dont care what your thinking. i dont care if you think im a stocker or you think im pathetic or you feel sorry for me. i dont want anyones pitty. i dont want his and i dont want yours. im just upset because i gave that him everything and even that wasnt enough. i hate having my emotions toyed with. Dont let someone promise you "forever" because "i guess promises were ment to be broken." it just doesnt make sense to me. none of it. first off this whole thing was a missunderstanding and then i come to find out that this is what he wanted all along. how could you do that to someone? how can you sit there and say things you dont even mean to them. how can you kiss them and know the whole thing is a lie. how can you do that? i wouldnt be able to look someone in the eye and lie about something so meaningful. if you dont want something than dont be a coward. say you dont want it. i hate how i would never do this to him and he did it to me. i honestly never thought he would. i thought i had the one guy who had a heart...i guess i thought wrong. if your in a relationship talk about your problems before its too late.

-Much Love-

[..vanessa..] p.s. i dont want your ring.

Take my photo off the wall
if it just wont sing for you
cause all thats left is gone away
and theres nothing there for you to prove

oh look what youve done
you made a fool of everyone
oh well it seems like such fun
until you loose what you have won

give me back my point of view
cause i just cant think for you
i can hardly hear you say
"what should i do?"
while you choose

oh look what youve done
you made a fool of everyone
oh well it seems like such fun
until you loose what you have won
oh look what youve done
you made a fool of everyone

take my photo off the wall
if it just wont sing for you
cause all thats left has gone away
and theres nothing there for you to do