[fic] supernatural: where you are, where i am
So this is where you are
Disclaimer: I don't own them. The CW and Kripke do.
fandom: supernatural
focus: gen, ruby, sam, sam's self-loathing lol
summary: Either pre- or during season four. Ruby can't afford for Sam to get better. Her needs require him to suffer.
He wants to die where nobody can see him
He wants to die in a lake in Geneva, where mountains can cover the
shape of his nose
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When they were done, Sam sat on the side of the bed, not moving an inch to wipe her blood off his face.
Ruby chided, contorting her own into appropriate regret, compassion. She'd seen him do it so often, but it remained difficult every time. Much like this. Remembering her needs from Sam's needs. Her needs required him to suffer. Sink further into this wretchedness, docile and graceless.
She wiped his mouth with a motel cloth, but at any more than that he pushed past her comforting hands for his pill bottle on the nightstand. After kicking back the glass of water she held out for him, he stared at the floor between his legs.
Then again, maybe their needs weren't so different after all.
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But who's to say it's wrong
And who's to say that it's not right
Where we should be for now