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idk what to do. tonight was weird. tiffany is having troubles, and i hope everything turns around for her. i hope she does what is best for her i know she likes to follow her heart more than her head, but sometimes,.... i think she should use her head more. it worries me, thinking that she's going to get hurt again, but i want her to stop worrying and to find her place. she's not dumb, and i know she'll keep fighting for as long as she loves him. i just hope she doesn't worry herself to death, or end up driving herself crazy.
i guess, it's the same w/ you. i promised you something in the beginning, and i will never do anything to let you down like that. i won't dissapoint you in that way, and i know how much you worry about me. i know you're going to worry each day about me, and i'll do the same for you b/c i care. but i also trust that you won't hurt me. it hurts me, knowing that i'm something that contributes to your sadness. that i'm part of what keeps you up at night and worrying. i want you to know that i'm never going to stop caring about you. even if you tell me to stop, i'll still think and wonder how you are, and wonder who you're with. if you want to know something, i don't want to meet anybody. i don't want anything new in my life, and i don't want to ever hurt you. i love you ONLY. you're one of the best things that has happened to me in my life, and i can't something like you pass. you're what i fight for with my parents, you're what i have always wanted in a relationship, and you're perfect in every way to me. if you don't know, each day i think about how much more i have fallen for you and how much longer this is going to last. i'm scared too. i'm terrified of what will happen, and what will become of this. i could easily take the easy way out and forget you ever existed in my life. i could easily erase the past few months and start over with everything when i move. but right now, i'm in love with you so much that i remind myself that i DON'T want to do that. i love you too much for you to turn into a memory. i love you too much for you to just be something to talk about to my friends. i love you too much for me to just give up. i don't find any of this to be a waste of time, and i hope you feel the same way too. yes, you were unexpected, and maybe landed at a bad time in my life, but i don't think of it that way. actually, this summer would have been lifeless, and pathetic, if it weren't for you. out of nowhere you entered my life and won my heart away. you are truly my knight in shining armor, and you've lifted me off my feet and swept me away. you've captured the ghost that was haunting me and locked him up. thank you for that. i love you dear. <3
you're right, you are the best. and i hope i am too. things without you are sadder. things without you are less worthwhile doing. i'll do anything for you dear, i hope you know that b/c i love you so much. i know i don't tell you enough, but i appreciate everything you have done for me. and i love everything you do for me as well. you mean more to me, than i can ever say enough times, and without you in my life, i'd probably be alone feeling sorry for myself. i wouldn't show it b/c i can't do that to my friends to make them feel sorry for me, but when i am alone, i would think about how useless i am, and unwanted i was. i'd feel ugly and sad all the time. but i don't b/c of you. thank you. <3
bed time now, so goodnight sweetheart, and see you soon.
love,,,,
lucy
p.s. there's more happiness in my life b/c of you. I LOVE YOU.
i guess, it's the same w/ you. i promised you something in the beginning, and i will never do anything to let you down like that. i won't dissapoint you in that way, and i know how much you worry about me. i know you're going to worry each day about me, and i'll do the same for you b/c i care. but i also trust that you won't hurt me. it hurts me, knowing that i'm something that contributes to your sadness. that i'm part of what keeps you up at night and worrying. i want you to know that i'm never going to stop caring about you. even if you tell me to stop, i'll still think and wonder how you are, and wonder who you're with. if you want to know something, i don't want to meet anybody. i don't want anything new in my life, and i don't want to ever hurt you. i love you ONLY. you're one of the best things that has happened to me in my life, and i can't something like you pass. you're what i fight for with my parents, you're what i have always wanted in a relationship, and you're perfect in every way to me. if you don't know, each day i think about how much more i have fallen for you and how much longer this is going to last. i'm scared too. i'm terrified of what will happen, and what will become of this. i could easily take the easy way out and forget you ever existed in my life. i could easily erase the past few months and start over with everything when i move. but right now, i'm in love with you so much that i remind myself that i DON'T want to do that. i love you too much for you to turn into a memory. i love you too much for you to just be something to talk about to my friends. i love you too much for me to just give up. i don't find any of this to be a waste of time, and i hope you feel the same way too. yes, you were unexpected, and maybe landed at a bad time in my life, but i don't think of it that way. actually, this summer would have been lifeless, and pathetic, if it weren't for you. out of nowhere you entered my life and won my heart away. you are truly my knight in shining armor, and you've lifted me off my feet and swept me away. you've captured the ghost that was haunting me and locked him up. thank you for that. i love you dear. <3
you're right, you are the best. and i hope i am too. things without you are sadder. things without you are less worthwhile doing. i'll do anything for you dear, i hope you know that b/c i love you so much. i know i don't tell you enough, but i appreciate everything you have done for me. and i love everything you do for me as well. you mean more to me, than i can ever say enough times, and without you in my life, i'd probably be alone feeling sorry for myself. i wouldn't show it b/c i can't do that to my friends to make them feel sorry for me, but when i am alone, i would think about how useless i am, and unwanted i was. i'd feel ugly and sad all the time. but i don't b/c of you. thank you. <3
bed time now, so goodnight sweetheart, and see you soon.
love,,,,
lucy
p.s. there's more happiness in my life b/c of you. I LOVE YOU.