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im so broke its absurd. ive been living off pocket change and bumming cigarettes off everyone around me. i feel bad, but theres nothing i can do about it. i have to scrounge for food around the apartment. i take any free food. i think this is the lowest ive ever been. i still havent paid my cell phone bill for two months now. im just praying taxes come back quickly. then ill have my car on the road and be able to pay for things again. i mean, im going "caddying," some easy job i guess and i make good money, next thursday through monday. but even then itll just get me back from the red, but not in the green. just kinda yellow. i really hate being broke. i like flashing cash and being cocky. without that, i dont really know whats going on. its almost mid february and i have no money, meaning that my next two paychecks will be rent and maybe one utility. then the next will go to gas and electric.
in retrospect, i dont think i shouldve moved out. i mean, independence is worth a price, and im unhappily paying it now. id like to move back home, but that would mess everyone up, and i care too much to do that. its nice to have a place of your own, but i think its better to have money and save it for college or a nicer car. im just in a real tight spot right now. either way i go i lose something.
in retrospect, i dont think i shouldve moved out. i mean, independence is worth a price, and im unhappily paying it now. id like to move back home, but that would mess everyone up, and i care too much to do that. its nice to have a place of your own, but i think its better to have money and save it for college or a nicer car. im just in a real tight spot right now. either way i go i lose something.