Family Affairs
I honestly truly hate being so down. But it feels like the only thing going on in my life is that. Why? I think I surround myself but some people who are cause drama and I cant be around them. So its time to cut the ties with those people. Yea one person in particular I wish we couldve had more. But during it all I understand why there isnt anything. Thats the friend part of this journal. My family... I know we have to play the cards were dealt. We can chose our family but geez tell me if a family is one who calls each other derogatory names and lies and is abusive? I get yelled at for not spending time with them. But how can I feel no connection. Does this make me a bad person? Cause I feel like one. I need to stop being so hard on myself and feel better. I need to find whats right for me. Not what will make me feel good for the moment. Life has a funny way of making things work out. I have learned that so... Time will Tell. Live life with no regrets. Cause at the time you wanted it. Let God help me find my light and my way.