it's really over... (very disjointed entry)
i can't believe it - where did the time go? i feel like a chunk of my life is missing, even though i was there for every second of it...
my friends are all too far away and the cell phone reception in my house is shitty so i can't even call anyone to talk. i hate this.
i'm still without a job, but i am looking... charleston mainly - but i still send out stray applications to europe in hopes that i may get some spectacular job over there; but that is highly unlikely.
i really just need to let all of my emotions out because i've been holding them in too long. i'm never alone when i need to cry and i can't cry around those who are nearby when the emotions hit... i think i may explode from everything that is bottled up inside of me.
something odd that happened on the way home: as many of you know (because i always say it when the song comes on the radio) the last song i listened to on my cd player beore being dropped off for move-in freshman year at centre was 'the middle' by jimy eat world.
as we were pulling into my neighborhood on monday, i was playing my ipod on random shuffle of all 2000-something songs and the last song to play was 'the middle 'by jimmy eat world. how strange is that? what are the odds?
anyway, my brother arrives home tomorrow on leave before he gets shipped off to his first tour (in germany). his birthday was today so i made him a cake for when he arrives tomorrow... i'm such a good sister :-\
i wish i had more to say, but, alas, i don't.
i miss you all more than you know...
my friends are all too far away and the cell phone reception in my house is shitty so i can't even call anyone to talk. i hate this.
i'm still without a job, but i am looking... charleston mainly - but i still send out stray applications to europe in hopes that i may get some spectacular job over there; but that is highly unlikely.
i really just need to let all of my emotions out because i've been holding them in too long. i'm never alone when i need to cry and i can't cry around those who are nearby when the emotions hit... i think i may explode from everything that is bottled up inside of me.
something odd that happened on the way home: as many of you know (because i always say it when the song comes on the radio) the last song i listened to on my cd player beore being dropped off for move-in freshman year at centre was 'the middle' by jimy eat world.
as we were pulling into my neighborhood on monday, i was playing my ipod on random shuffle of all 2000-something songs and the last song to play was 'the middle 'by jimmy eat world. how strange is that? what are the odds?
anyway, my brother arrives home tomorrow on leave before he gets shipped off to his first tour (in germany). his birthday was today so i made him a cake for when he arrives tomorrow... i'm such a good sister :-\
i wish i had more to say, but, alas, i don't.
i miss you all more than you know...