i made a wish, and bleed
well, my life i figured out will never get better. when it looks like it's heading up, it just goes right back down. not only do i have to deal with all the bullshit thats coming from my fathers death, but my great aunt died on saturday. she was a sweet, kind, caring person. i have such a shitty job. having to put up with so much incompatence and bullshit is not fun. i have way too many bills to pay, even ones from the hospitals that i shouldn't have to pay are coming after me. deannas way over there. i have no idea whats going on with missy. i've become very suicidle again. i've actually been cutting my wrists. but with my luck, i wont die for a long time, i'm just meant to stay on this earth and put up with so much pain. i really should've died in either one of those accidents!!!!