A letter to my ego
Not my past, not my future self...my now self. The one and only. Y'know, sometimes I like to pretend to know everything about what I'm doing, act like I'm truly wise and that I know for a fact that I'm taking the right course of action, whether it be for true action or just how to feel about a certain situation. But honestly, I'm just as lost as you are. I'm a psych minor, and somewhat intuitively naturally psycho-analytic, so I like to think I know how to manipulate you into feeling a certain way about something. For that, I'm sorry, but I can't honestly say that I'll stop. Sometimes it's easier to make up my mind before hand about how to feel when something happens, even though it hardly ever works. I know it may seem like I'm just rollin with the punches and goin with the flow, but sometimes I'm considering things and making decisions behind your back. I mean dude, I try to be true and honest, but a lot of times, you get me in trouble, so I've gotta really think about things...and then that gets me in even more trouble. I just can't wait to grow up and be wise and really know how to handle situations. Although, I guess once I have the experience, I really won't need it, because no two emotional situations are ever really the same. I do sometimes give you the reigns though. Like, I'll have a notion of what the right thing to do it, but I don't, I let you take over, cause it feels natural. Maybe not right, but natural. I don't know, I'm kinda bored...let me know what you think about this, I just think we need to get some shit worked out.