He died last night
So I had fun last night at Leslie's and I greatly appreciate the effort she put into the night. No other girl has ever cooked for me the way she did, or cleaned up just to please me. I love that about her, not that I have control over her or anything, but that she did that just to make me happy. It makes me think back on my Aristotle reading on Friends, and how a true friend will give without wanting anything in return. For the first time in any of my relationships, I am genuinely happy. With Kristen I just dated her because she was hot and she was my first gf, with Misty all we ever did was fight, with Corey all we ever did was have sex, and with Amber I was just a side show for the main attraction; with Leslie, I feel like I am an equal to her. I don't feel any better than her, and I don't feel the need to be on the defensive like I was with Misty. I don't know how else to explain my thoughts on her and I, other than that we haven't had a single fight in two months and we are very happy. To be honest, I assumed I would be a dick to her and start shit for no reason, and besides my weird antics, I really have been a good boy friend to her...I just can't get over the flowers she had on the table, the meal, it just was all more than I expected. I think that is what makes life so great, one moment I am talking to my Mom about a death in the family, and the next I am with a loved one hugging and kissing and cuddling on the couch. Not that I am downplaying the loss, because it hurts to think about it, but I am of the belief that it is best to let people go and be happy for them. My Dad and my Uncle Billy were with him when he passesd last night, after everyone else had gone home. It was a little after 12, and for some reason I knew it would be like that..late at night, off of life support, in his sleep, he died. I thank God that he didn't suffer, like millions of others have, and I can only hope he turned his life around enough to get God's grace. I was helping this new girl train today at Lowe's, and I realized that I am growing as a person, even if only slightly. I had an upbeat spirit about it, instead of just making her hate her job right off the bat, and I think I helped her on her first day. These two non-violence men came into my philosophy class on Monday, and what was suppose to be a half hour discussion turned into a full class effort for an hour. Some people in there had their doubts about some of the things both the men said, and others just stayed quiet. I think that non-violence is a huge thing, an effort all Americans should try to enforce in all their youth..I think we need the military, and I support them, but it needs to be for defensive purposed only, not for going on the offensive. One of the guys was a Vietnam vet, and after his service he opposed the war. He believed that violence was necessary in certain occasions, such as defending the homeland, but that we misuse our military so often that it makes it impossible for us to have allies. If we stay on this course, America may truly be alone against all the countries of the world, fighting against to many peoples to triumph. I forgot how many people had died in Vietnam, but it was interesting to hear it brought up by him. Over 20,000 American troops died, but we don't even know how many Vietnamese died. It is at least in the millions, which is very sad, considering most of them were innocents. But anyways, I need to do my homework, I was just having stream of thought.