(no subject)
ok so this is day 3 of tsuby being in college. and it sucks
i dont know if like it just started sucking so much cuz im tired and drained as FUCK or what...
like yesterday I was fine but today i've just been hella like depressed and shit. adn i know i sound retarded but its just really hard feeling alone here and like watching people go off and have so much fun
but im really glad hes starting to like it a lot and get a lot more comfy. that makes me really happy.
now all i have to do is figure outa way to make me happy too and we will be all set.
but he and rand (from harker) are pretty good freinds now.. i mean as good as a day of knowing eachother goes.
but i hate the feeling when you cry just because you are so frustrated and alone and then you feel super pathetic afterwards. becuase you know you shouldnt be sitting there feeling sorry for your self. that has to be one of the worst feelings in the world.
i guess i am just scared of being left behind and he has reassured me over and over again but you really cant help but feel that way until you KNOW its not going to happen. and this is the longest i have ever gone with out seeing him besides japan .
but on the brighter side i am probably going to cal poly SLO on oct 8th or 9th or something and then looking at the classes and shit on monday the 10th since we dont have school. that will be good fun hopefully.
k yah and i better not get sick becuase everyone at school is getting sick with some weird thing. and i cant afford to get sick. fuckkkkkkkkk
k bye guys later
i dont know if like it just started sucking so much cuz im tired and drained as FUCK or what...
like yesterday I was fine but today i've just been hella like depressed and shit. adn i know i sound retarded but its just really hard feeling alone here and like watching people go off and have so much fun
but im really glad hes starting to like it a lot and get a lot more comfy. that makes me really happy.
now all i have to do is figure outa way to make me happy too and we will be all set.
but he and rand (from harker) are pretty good freinds now.. i mean as good as a day of knowing eachother goes.
but i hate the feeling when you cry just because you are so frustrated and alone and then you feel super pathetic afterwards. becuase you know you shouldnt be sitting there feeling sorry for your self. that has to be one of the worst feelings in the world.
i guess i am just scared of being left behind and he has reassured me over and over again but you really cant help but feel that way until you KNOW its not going to happen. and this is the longest i have ever gone with out seeing him besides japan .
but on the brighter side i am probably going to cal poly SLO on oct 8th or 9th or something and then looking at the classes and shit on monday the 10th since we dont have school. that will be good fun hopefully.
k yah and i better not get sick becuase everyone at school is getting sick with some weird thing. and i cant afford to get sick. fuckkkkkkkkk
k bye guys later