Someone shoot me please?
Names have been left out for Personal and private reasons.
I dunno, it sucks when you really like someone and when your around them, it kills you soo much. I know how ______ feels to be around ______. I know how ____ feels, its like okay you had shitty relationships in the pass, but even tho he (or she) said "I wouldn't hurt you like he/she did." and they did hurt you, its like, I care a lot about you, and I wouldn't want you to go through that again. Me and ______ can sooo relate to that. But that ______ can't trust another relationship b/c of what happened. And not every girl or guy is the same. I totally know how he feels now. But grrr... it kills me so much to be around him, like at my open house, there were sooooo many times I just wanted to get up and walk away and not come back, it totally tore me apart. But yeah, some relationships suck but youu have to go through them to find "the one" even if there horrible. And at the end, you do learn a lot from it, what you want and what you don't want. And if you don't put yourself out there and you'll never find the person you're suppose to be with. Ooooh this came from my grandmother. I know, my grandmother? Well, we're very close, I loove her even tho she's stuck up and snotty and.... yeah. If you ever seen Gilmore girls, their grandmother is juuust like mine, both rich and have to have their own way. And you can not change there mind when its set on something. Errr! Anyhoo if you looked at all my pass relationships omigosh, they were sooo horrible, there were times I just wanted to be like "I can't do this anymore." Alll I wanted is to just live on a boat in the middle of the ocean and be by myself, but you have to take that chance for happiness...and you'll never know who you could end up with. Like I know, and I keep telling myself this, I will meet guys at college, and I'll meet one that I like and I'll find myself a man there, a college guy, but its like I don't want anyone else I want him. Nooow I sound obese and I'm soo not. If you ever had a crush on someone and it killed you to be around them, then you know what I'm talking about. The feelings I had for Jack I'm starting to have for him. I mean, my feelings for Jack were pretty strong. I didn't loove him like that, but they were there. I mean...I like to be around him, and I like hanging out with him, I'll learn to deal with it, but still. I mean, he deserves to be with someone soo great (even if its not me), hes such a sweetheart, and sooo hott, omigosh. Who in there right mind would hurt him? Or even shame him? I mean come on now. Their just outta their mind. Who would let him go?? Ahhhhh.....!!!! I'm going to stop, I'm driving myself crazy!!
Soooo I went to see Brian at work with jessie, aww he looked so cute doing the ice cream thing. Jess and I sat and shared an ice cream and talked. Wow, we were due for a venting conversation. Sometimes she can be soooo bloody honest with me, that it makes me soo mad, but its like, shes telling me the truth, and I love her for that. And I can't be mad for hearing the truth. But sometimes you don't want to hear the truth and you just want a big fat lie, to make you feel better :o) But theeen Jess, Brian and meee went to get food, I sat and watched them eat. $3 for a shake that looks grooooosss!! You guys are soo wasteful!! Well...so am I. Everyone is.
Tomooorrrrooow Jesssie and I are hitting up Target!! Whooooooooo!!
Monday I get a credit card! Ohhh yeah!!! :o)