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i can see how people get wrapped up in their careers in a way I couldn't fathom before. I live eat sleep my job and its pretty out of control. And I am beginning to realize that tfa knows what they are doing and they probably have some crazy way of weeding out for my personality. Because every day I can go in there and expect for something different to happen. and most of the time it doesn't. but sometimes and I can win over that one kid who I thought was going to be defiant til the end of his life. I'm getting kind of good at manipulating 12 year olds (in a good way). I give them the positive and then mention something their parents told me like the motivating "christmas presents". And whoa can I be a bitch. I track them down and give them detention and it feels good because I guarantee that they will not be in there the next week. Its really cool to hear them talk about mitochondria in a way that I never understood at a middle school level. I don't really know what this is, but I guess I am feeling relatively effective at this point in the year. I have a shitton to learn but it is priceless to have those utterly perfect moments where there is clarity and I just changed someone a little bit. And I really enjoy those kids who everyone else complains about, when secretly, they bust their ass for me. they are my faves.