Yearly check-up
Well, hello readers.
Next Thursday I go in for my annual exam. It was just a little over 1 year ago that I started on the path to a life-altering change.
I don't regret my choice. I don't regret the course of action I chose to take.
I am annoyed that I'm heavy... heavy in a different way heavy. Slowly creeping towards 200 lbs again, and I do not like it.
Energy-wise I am pretty much right back where I was a year ago; minus the near-bleeding out once a month. Skating skills wise, about the same. Endurance is almost back to what it should be, agility, etc. Which means it's gonna be hard all over again; because this is where I left off a year ago; and it took the better part of a year to get back to the plateau... I was really hoping I'd progress beyond that.
My issue isn't physical, it's mental. I have no drive, I have no passion, I have no ambition. I am content to just 'be.' Actually, that isn't true... I'm not content... because my mind knows I should and could be doing more. So I'm frustrated but unable to free myself from the muck.
But, physically I am good... albeit heavy. I've fallen back into old habits, and the waistline expands accordingly.
Still, looking forward to seeing Dr. Hayes... will be interested to hear her impressions of my healing process.
Truth is, I am pretty damned amazing. If only I could believe it long enough to do something with it!
Next Thursday I go in for my annual exam. It was just a little over 1 year ago that I started on the path to a life-altering change.
I don't regret my choice. I don't regret the course of action I chose to take.
I am annoyed that I'm heavy... heavy in a different way heavy. Slowly creeping towards 200 lbs again, and I do not like it.
Energy-wise I am pretty much right back where I was a year ago; minus the near-bleeding out once a month. Skating skills wise, about the same. Endurance is almost back to what it should be, agility, etc. Which means it's gonna be hard all over again; because this is where I left off a year ago; and it took the better part of a year to get back to the plateau... I was really hoping I'd progress beyond that.
My issue isn't physical, it's mental. I have no drive, I have no passion, I have no ambition. I am content to just 'be.' Actually, that isn't true... I'm not content... because my mind knows I should and could be doing more. So I'm frustrated but unable to free myself from the muck.
But, physically I am good... albeit heavy. I've fallen back into old habits, and the waistline expands accordingly.
Still, looking forward to seeing Dr. Hayes... will be interested to hear her impressions of my healing process.
Truth is, I am pretty damned amazing. If only I could believe it long enough to do something with it!