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its the end of baseball season and im sad as none of my teams made it to the playoffs but its ok as i still love me some baseball. I have been to ny twice this month without a care in the world. my bills are racking up and for once i am in dismay at myself as i think this will be the first time i go into debt ever in my life. buts its ok i can accept it and just buckle down for the next month or so.
this year if flying by without a second to sit and look back and what has been accomplished or worse yet, what has gone to shits. im thinking next year will be better but for now its ok.
I still have this man in my mind and it keeps consuming me in a way no other person has before. im beginning to think its the thrill of it all. or just the intrigue that he leaves when he walks out of the room. but i know enough about him that i shouldnt be left with this feeling. while having dinner with someone else i sat there thinking of him and wishing he was sitting in front of me enjoying that meal. we havent talked or hung out in a while because hes been "busy". i hope hes not doing it to prevent me from falling, as if hes sensed this coming from me already... even though it was the very first thing i said during our first conversation. I made it very clear and said and one more thing, dont let me fall for you.
I hope thats not the case.
this year if flying by without a second to sit and look back and what has been accomplished or worse yet, what has gone to shits. im thinking next year will be better but for now its ok.
I still have this man in my mind and it keeps consuming me in a way no other person has before. im beginning to think its the thrill of it all. or just the intrigue that he leaves when he walks out of the room. but i know enough about him that i shouldnt be left with this feeling. while having dinner with someone else i sat there thinking of him and wishing he was sitting in front of me enjoying that meal. we havent talked or hung out in a while because hes been "busy". i hope hes not doing it to prevent me from falling, as if hes sensed this coming from me already... even though it was the very first thing i said during our first conversation. I made it very clear and said and one more thing, dont let me fall for you.
I hope thats not the case.