"It's time to face the truth, I will never be with you."
I'll always love you,
I've given this a lot of thought. I don't want to hold you back anymore. I know you do what you want, but you try to be kind enough not to hurt me. I've been hurt, this will always hurt. Seeing you with another girl will hurt the most, but I don't want you to know that it's hurting me because I want you to experience so much more now that I'm out of the way. Not being with you hurts because I keep going back to the memories we've shared. I'm not regreting our relationship at all. It just really is time to move on. I don't want to come home anymore feeling sad or wondering when I will see you next. I don't want to be known as the ex-girlfriend anymore or just to be someone to laugh about and make jokes about how I acted this summer. I don't want to hang out with just you anymore because you are afraid to take me around your friends because they may not like me or don't think it's "healthy" for us to be hanging out. I don't want to be jealous when I read your live journal about you making so many new "girl" friends, because I'm jealous more than anything that I can't be that friend with you. I know I'm closer to you than Breanna ever was, but I'm jealous of the fact that you two have a better friendship than you and I do. I want more than anything to be friends with you, but I can't see it ever happening. We will never be just friends. I love you and I know you love me, but the more we keep doing what we do, makes it harder and harder on myself. I told myself it was fine because it was giving me a sense of hope. You always think that all I need is time to rethink about what I said, but I don't need time for this. Time is something you and I don't have anymore. I counted on the fact of you telling me "You never know if we'll be together again" and it just kept me hanging on, but I'm going to be the one saying it now. We will not be together ever again. We can't. Now it's just time to face the truth, I will never be with you.