alone again
so im at the apartment alone again its like 8pm and i cant find the motovation to do anything but write more depressing shit but it feels good so deal with it
live in a cage
with out bars
cant see out side
still hear the cars
can you feel it beat
dont have a heart
the world breaks
at the sight of a heart
battered and bruised
torn apart
life is a play
do you know your part
fail to act
it passes you by
then you sit as i do
and wonder why
but dont be too bold
never be rash
steal the spotlight
and its gone in a flash
and all youve got left
is your 5 min of fame
sell your soul to have it again
just 5 more minutes
the deperate plea
just five more minutes
of her and me
yeah thats all i got im sorry for all you who have me on your friends page but as ive said before i just let my hands go and what ever winds up on your screen is pure unadultered me. yay arguyle the prick has a human side and more often than not its bleeding from some wound of some sort. jt got it right is saying i try to save every one but thats what i do, done it for years dont really know anything else. but i was so sure that not only could i save her but she would save me from me and take me far far from here take me where i didnt have the strenght to go alone. take me beyond my own imagination and past my overly simplistic dreams to new breath taking heights. it wasnt a thought i was sure. in my mind it was all a matter of time. and now shes a ghost i cant see her but shes right there just out of veiw i swore i saw her in my dreams last night just out of the corner of my "eye" i turned and nothing was there not just no her no nothing existance was just void. it was maddening i refuse to believe that as long as she can say that she loves me and that she would still MARRY me that there is still a her and i. that alex is simply a passing thing a way to cope with the fear she felt and she will come back when the "new shiny ooh aah" wears off. i like alex i really do but fuck him right in the ear. first off im not happy about how tihngs went dwon while i was gone but not really my business but as far as im conserned he was probalby pursuing her the entire time i was back after my 1 week absence. and that makes me angry angry enough to alomst dosomethign about it besides get more depressed about how i was probably lied to for weeks and slept even if just for a few hours next to some one i was wholy in love with but who may or may not have loved me...... wow i need to be drunk....
live in a cage
with out bars
cant see out side
still hear the cars
can you feel it beat
dont have a heart
the world breaks
at the sight of a heart
battered and bruised
torn apart
life is a play
do you know your part
fail to act
it passes you by
then you sit as i do
and wonder why
but dont be too bold
never be rash
steal the spotlight
and its gone in a flash
and all youve got left
is your 5 min of fame
sell your soul to have it again
just 5 more minutes
the deperate plea
just five more minutes
of her and me
yeah thats all i got im sorry for all you who have me on your friends page but as ive said before i just let my hands go and what ever winds up on your screen is pure unadultered me. yay arguyle the prick has a human side and more often than not its bleeding from some wound of some sort. jt got it right is saying i try to save every one but thats what i do, done it for years dont really know anything else. but i was so sure that not only could i save her but she would save me from me and take me far far from here take me where i didnt have the strenght to go alone. take me beyond my own imagination and past my overly simplistic dreams to new breath taking heights. it wasnt a thought i was sure. in my mind it was all a matter of time. and now shes a ghost i cant see her but shes right there just out of veiw i swore i saw her in my dreams last night just out of the corner of my "eye" i turned and nothing was there not just no her no nothing existance was just void. it was maddening i refuse to believe that as long as she can say that she loves me and that she would still MARRY me that there is still a her and i. that alex is simply a passing thing a way to cope with the fear she felt and she will come back when the "new shiny ooh aah" wears off. i like alex i really do but fuck him right in the ear. first off im not happy about how tihngs went dwon while i was gone but not really my business but as far as im conserned he was probalby pursuing her the entire time i was back after my 1 week absence. and that makes me angry angry enough to alomst dosomethign about it besides get more depressed about how i was probably lied to for weeks and slept even if just for a few hours next to some one i was wholy in love with but who may or may not have loved me...... wow i need to be drunk....