Venting...
So I'm writing this down to get it out of my system.
On Saturday night, I felt like TOTAL shit, with everything going on, I'm not surprised.
SO instead of doing something constructive like reading or writing a song or a poem or such. I picked up a massive bottle of Smirnoff Ice and pretty much downed it. Am I proud? No. Do I regret it? No, I needed some relief.
I stayed up until six in the morning wallowing in self-pity. And, as I put it earlier, I was "half way between crying and being sick and downing a massive bottle of Smirnoff Ice." And to top it all off I spent some of that time having people tell me that their relationships were "love, actually." And some people being total shits, quite frankly.
In a way I'm glad the way things have turned out. I don't need people like that in my life. I need things to be as simple and easy as possible right now, which they are.
I need friends around me and it turns out, I have the most amazing friends, ever.
I've started back at Uni, which is actually not that bad, and I have lovely boys who think I'm hilarious. And we seem to accidently co-ordinate clothes and styles apparently...
And a ceratin friend, who'll know who he is, has been amazing and so so helpful. I'm so glad we're back to the way we were. <3
Oh, and one last thing... before I forget. Yes, I do make private journal entries which certain people can and cannot see. And, you were right to be concerned, it was about you and only you could see it. But thanks, I owe you a lot. You helped me see the truth, ma soeur jumelle.
On Saturday night, I felt like TOTAL shit, with everything going on, I'm not surprised.
SO instead of doing something constructive like reading or writing a song or a poem or such. I picked up a massive bottle of Smirnoff Ice and pretty much downed it. Am I proud? No. Do I regret it? No, I needed some relief.
I stayed up until six in the morning wallowing in self-pity. And, as I put it earlier, I was "half way between crying and being sick and downing a massive bottle of Smirnoff Ice." And to top it all off I spent some of that time having people tell me that their relationships were "love, actually." And some people being total shits, quite frankly.
In a way I'm glad the way things have turned out. I don't need people like that in my life. I need things to be as simple and easy as possible right now, which they are.
I need friends around me and it turns out, I have the most amazing friends, ever.
I've started back at Uni, which is actually not that bad, and I have lovely boys who think I'm hilarious. And we seem to accidently co-ordinate clothes and styles apparently...
And a ceratin friend, who'll know who he is, has been amazing and so so helpful. I'm so glad we're back to the way we were. <3
Oh, and one last thing... before I forget. Yes, I do make private journal entries which certain people can and cannot see. And, you were right to be concerned, it was about you and only you could see it. But thanks, I owe you a lot. You helped me see the truth, ma soeur jumelle.