im sorry
i feel miserable.
i am not happy. i have screwed up a lot lately. i have hurt one of my best friends and it's killing me. you know who you are and im sorry. i cant get this off of my mind. you have no idea how much you mean to me. i want to be your constant source of happiness and sunshine in a dark world. i want to keep you thinking positive when i know youre thinking negative. i want to be there for you. i want to laugh with you and i want to talk to you. i want everything to be the way it used to be but i know thats nearly impossible. i know youre mad, i know youre upset, i know youre hurt, and i know you just want to erase me, but that would be very bad for both of us. take your time, but ill always be here waiting. we have something special, i know you know that and feel it when we're together. we dont need to go ruining that. cheer up buttercup. <3