There is still no make up to hide your insides.
Goooooooooood daaaamn.
Finally, i did it. Sort of.
I made someone feel so trapped in something with me that I continuously treated them like shit as they have done to me in the past. And you know what? It felt fucking great. To see that look on their face the next day.
No envy, bitterness, or resentment from me. At all.
I feel like a brand new person upon exacting my revenge. And the great thing is that I'm not really one to act this way towards anyone.
But at the same time it feels good knowing somebody finally knows what it feels like to be stuck in a situation and be forced to do all the work.
Sort of, I kind of manipulated them into thinking they were responsible to everything that ensued afterward. But still, it's just nice to know I'm not alone finally.
My xbox is being stupid. Everytime I try to get into any match online i have a super horrible connection to the host, regardless of who, or where they are. I got dropped from every game i tried playing today. It sucks cause I have been dying to play Call of Duty and just kill everyone. I've been getting REALLY good at that game now. It's nice.
I still don't like the new AIM. I'm trying to adjust. So far i think i'm doing okay.
I fell asleep on my couch at like 6 today. I woke up and it was 9. I was extremely tired. It's really hard to adjust to waking up early so suddenly.
I hate schoooool.
I hate seeing people from before.
I hate interacting with them.
I hate looking at their faces.
I hate making eye contact.
I hate the way they stare at me. Pretending to care about me when they see me.
Lies.
It's a fucking annoyance.
I wish they had no eyes to see, no ears to hear.
That their voice could not be carried past their lips.
Nightmares would steal their breath every night and keep them from waking up.
I hope that my eyes fail when looking upward at them.
I've began to write down thoughts and other miscallaneous brain functions into this notebook at home.
It's almost like self-therapy. It helps though at the end of the day. This is one of the few times in my life that I will publicly post something from it.
I hope to receive some real criticism from it though. I want to hear people's opinions. Whether they be rude, demeaning, happy, pleasurable. Whatever. I want feedback. This sounds demanding, but I just want to know how people can possibly relate to me.
Don't speak, don't think.
Don't listen to what they say.
We are all just pawns in their plan for conformity.
We seek the truth and visions all brand new.
They provide us with nothing but lies, and deceit.
Striving to fix what we've come to call life.
We've become numb to the slightest speck of individuality, we've lost our process of thought.
Forgetting what we stood for, we lie awake with flies over our face.
This was meant to be, forgetting what it was to have a life.
Now forced to create our own demise, we'll salvage whats left of time.
And the rest will watch as we all die.
Finally, i did it. Sort of.
I made someone feel so trapped in something with me that I continuously treated them like shit as they have done to me in the past. And you know what? It felt fucking great. To see that look on their face the next day.
No envy, bitterness, or resentment from me. At all.
I feel like a brand new person upon exacting my revenge. And the great thing is that I'm not really one to act this way towards anyone.
But at the same time it feels good knowing somebody finally knows what it feels like to be stuck in a situation and be forced to do all the work.
Sort of, I kind of manipulated them into thinking they were responsible to everything that ensued afterward. But still, it's just nice to know I'm not alone finally.
My xbox is being stupid. Everytime I try to get into any match online i have a super horrible connection to the host, regardless of who, or where they are. I got dropped from every game i tried playing today. It sucks cause I have been dying to play Call of Duty and just kill everyone. I've been getting REALLY good at that game now. It's nice.
I still don't like the new AIM. I'm trying to adjust. So far i think i'm doing okay.
I fell asleep on my couch at like 6 today. I woke up and it was 9. I was extremely tired. It's really hard to adjust to waking up early so suddenly.
I hate schoooool.
I hate seeing people from before.
I hate interacting with them.
I hate looking at their faces.
I hate making eye contact.
I hate the way they stare at me. Pretending to care about me when they see me.
Lies.
It's a fucking annoyance.
I wish they had no eyes to see, no ears to hear.
That their voice could not be carried past their lips.
Nightmares would steal their breath every night and keep them from waking up.
I hope that my eyes fail when looking upward at them.
I've began to write down thoughts and other miscallaneous brain functions into this notebook at home.
It's almost like self-therapy. It helps though at the end of the day. This is one of the few times in my life that I will publicly post something from it.
I hope to receive some real criticism from it though. I want to hear people's opinions. Whether they be rude, demeaning, happy, pleasurable. Whatever. I want feedback. This sounds demanding, but I just want to know how people can possibly relate to me.
Don't speak, don't think.
Don't listen to what they say.
We are all just pawns in their plan for conformity.
We seek the truth and visions all brand new.
They provide us with nothing but lies, and deceit.
Striving to fix what we've come to call life.
We've become numb to the slightest speck of individuality, we've lost our process of thought.
Forgetting what we stood for, we lie awake with flies over our face.
This was meant to be, forgetting what it was to have a life.
Now forced to create our own demise, we'll salvage whats left of time.
And the rest will watch as we all die.