....... Yeah that's about it.......
Yeah I know I've been absent for like two weeks. I haven't been able to access live journal at my house. For some stupid reason it would always go to that error thing.
Anyway that and the fact that I've been kinda absent from life for the past week. Anyone who knows me knows why. No words could justify all that he was or all that he meant to me. Nothing could express the mix of emotions- fear, despair, depression, anger, hopelessness and then a strange hope and determination, and amidst it all...... a peace. No one understands but those who experienced it to the utmost degree. And I only knew him for three years- I feel almost selfish when I think of what his family must feel. Like I don't have the right to feel sad, but now that I have no right to feel happy at the same time... But I do know that I'll see him again and he won't be sick or tired. For some reason God saw fit to take him now and not later- not that it would have been better then, just not so life-changing. I have another year left in the band- it is my duty along with the other members in leadership to keep the band going.
It will be tough and I urge you all- no matter who or how old or where or whatever- get to know Jesus Christ! This isn't just a bunch of Bible bashing because we're sad- it is everyday life and all eternity. That will always be my stand, even when I mess up or just want to quit living. He is my perfecter and sustainer forever and always- I wouldn't be making it now otherwise. Just ask me- I'll tell ya about it.
Anyway that and the fact that I've been kinda absent from life for the past week. Anyone who knows me knows why. No words could justify all that he was or all that he meant to me. Nothing could express the mix of emotions- fear, despair, depression, anger, hopelessness and then a strange hope and determination, and amidst it all...... a peace. No one understands but those who experienced it to the utmost degree. And I only knew him for three years- I feel almost selfish when I think of what his family must feel. Like I don't have the right to feel sad, but now that I have no right to feel happy at the same time... But I do know that I'll see him again and he won't be sick or tired. For some reason God saw fit to take him now and not later- not that it would have been better then, just not so life-changing. I have another year left in the band- it is my duty along with the other members in leadership to keep the band going.
It will be tough and I urge you all- no matter who or how old or where or whatever- get to know Jesus Christ! This isn't just a bunch of Bible bashing because we're sad- it is everyday life and all eternity. That will always be my stand, even when I mess up or just want to quit living. He is my perfecter and sustainer forever and always- I wouldn't be making it now otherwise. Just ask me- I'll tell ya about it.