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so i'm home from richmond...it was fucking amazing...so much alcohol...crazy fucking bikes...so many crazy bikes..it was rad seeing old friends and drinking with them...it was good hanging out with kids from charlotte that i didnt' know too well...i love richmond...i told myself i wasn't going to contact demi this weekend...that did not happen...talking to her over texts made me miss her that much more...i'm glad i get to be with her april 10th...i hope the fuck ups can make us stronger...i'm really excited/scared for this few weeks...i hope its going to be good...i really hope its going to be good...i'm excited to get off the train and give her the biggest hug ive ever given anyone..i hate not knowing how things are going to work out...i really hate being away from demi...and i hate how i know she thinks about the fact that things might fuck up again...i know what i want with my future...and every day i want it more and more...i know that ill have to work for it but i'm ok with that. but it doesn't matter what i say until i do it..the fall will not come soon enough. but no matter what happens i will be ok..it hurts now knowing it might not work out but if it doesn't ill be alright..but i know who i fit with...i know whos hand fits perfectly in mine..i know who can read me better then i can myself sometimes...and vice virsa..i know when something is wrong and i know when things are going to be ok...i need to keep a real journal but then she will never read this...and i want her...and only her to see this...anyways i'm going to get ready for tomorrow then go to bed...i have a long day tomorrow...i love her..i hope she can look past the bullshit and see that love is stronger then it all.