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today has been super awkward...i have not felt this uncomfortable in my own house since last spring...i'm sick..my house is dirty...i'm just sick of everyones bullshit...i dont' care about your fucking drama...who the fuck cares..unless it directly involves someone thats close to you why the fuck does it matter? i'm sick of everyone wanting to fight all the god damn time, and i know fighting has its place and time, i'm not trying to say that people should not fight but i'm just sick of everyone going out to a show or a bar and looking for a fucking fight..what fun is that? i miss this summer when it was bro downs all the time...i miss old friends..and i miss my fucking girlfriend...i hate this distance...it sucks so much more after going there and then now comming back to america, dirty, gross, people just wanting to "fuck shit up" or "rep their scene". Ill never not be a punk/hardcore kid, its something that has made me a part of who i am but i just feel like everyone has lost the real reason behind it...i miss the late 90's when kids respected eachother and any shit fuck kid could not just dress cool and be accepted...maybe i just need to get out of charlotte...i don't know whats wrong with me today...and i dont' know why i'm writing it on fucking live journal...i guess its better then myspace and i want my friends to know whats going on in my life..i can't fucking wait till april...its going to be amazing...the only thing i'm worried about is not being able to see all the new friends i met last time i was over seas...i really can't wait till demi, black derrick, and i get a house together. i can have my cats back, i won't have to worry about my roomates being disrespectful..all i want to do is get out of this rut i'm in..and to top it off i have NO money....blah...enough bitching...if we use to be close at all and still are on good terms please get ahold of me..id love to see some old friends.