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So i've been kind of lonely the past couple of weeks. I haven't been working as much and i've been making up for it with a lot of sleeping. The loneliness is kind of a new feeling to me, i havent felt this way in a very, very long time. I forgot what it was like. So i called jose cause i knew he's somebody i can talk to about it, about anything, and he really made me feel better. He can always find something to tell you that you didn't think of before. Sometimes i wish he was straight, cause i would really marry him.
I was thinking today about the fact that i want to move. I know i want to go somewhere warmer, but without the risk of hurricanes, and i've been thinking more and more about washington dc. But then i got to thinking, that if i'm lonely now how am i ever going to move somewhere where i know no one? i mean i've done it before, once to italy and once to buffalo, but i was younger then, more free spirited maybe. I was wondering if it's harder to make new friends as you get older...i decided that that can't be the case. I mean take my mom, after 50 years and two divorces she finally finds the love of her life. And i know that friends of hers have come and gone but she does make new friends. I look at her life because i am basically her twin 30 years later. It makes me a little more hopeful. I know that when i decide to move that i might experience something like this again but it won't last and i'll be fine. I have started over 4 times in my life and i think i can handle another one. Hmm...it always seems to be the "coming home" starting over that turns out to be the worst. Anyway, thats enough about that.
I finally got some "menu's" or brochures whatever you want to call them and some flyers for Lords and Ladies. I went to the high school today to give a couple out to people i know could potentially be customers. Come to find out Ms Dorr (who used to be a secretary in the guidance office) is no longer there! She was mainly the person i wanted to see since i've known her since elementary school...she got moved to Steimentz so i sent her one of them through the inter-school mail. I hope she gets it. I don't really know who to give them out to, seeing as i don't know many people who get facials. I'm sure i'll meet people along the way, meanwhile they will be sitting in my car waiting.
I don't know what else to say right now. I miss Kitty.
I was thinking today about the fact that i want to move. I know i want to go somewhere warmer, but without the risk of hurricanes, and i've been thinking more and more about washington dc. But then i got to thinking, that if i'm lonely now how am i ever going to move somewhere where i know no one? i mean i've done it before, once to italy and once to buffalo, but i was younger then, more free spirited maybe. I was wondering if it's harder to make new friends as you get older...i decided that that can't be the case. I mean take my mom, after 50 years and two divorces she finally finds the love of her life. And i know that friends of hers have come and gone but she does make new friends. I look at her life because i am basically her twin 30 years later. It makes me a little more hopeful. I know that when i decide to move that i might experience something like this again but it won't last and i'll be fine. I have started over 4 times in my life and i think i can handle another one. Hmm...it always seems to be the "coming home" starting over that turns out to be the worst. Anyway, thats enough about that.
I finally got some "menu's" or brochures whatever you want to call them and some flyers for Lords and Ladies. I went to the high school today to give a couple out to people i know could potentially be customers. Come to find out Ms Dorr (who used to be a secretary in the guidance office) is no longer there! She was mainly the person i wanted to see since i've known her since elementary school...she got moved to Steimentz so i sent her one of them through the inter-school mail. I hope she gets it. I don't really know who to give them out to, seeing as i don't know many people who get facials. I'm sure i'll meet people along the way, meanwhile they will be sitting in my car waiting.
I don't know what else to say right now. I miss Kitty.