In search for something to make it a better day
Friday:
+ Made a cake for my grandparents' 50th anniversary.
- My aunt and uncle came and I had to pretend I had things to say to them after not seeing them for like 3 or 4 years.
- My uncle creeps me out and my aunt is going deaf.
+ Picked up my bridesmaid dress [and it FITS!]
+ My grandparents finally came to their own party [surprise was ruined because it was the only way to get them down here from the upper peninsula].
+ Watched Degrassi.
Saturday:
+ Wore my dress around the house for a little bit...go ahead, laugh, but just so you know, I look pretty spiffy in it. hah.
- - Felt ultra depressed and broke down in front of my mom and grandma and said "I'm not happy."
+ Went to Sidra's/Shanna's open house and surprisingly had a lot of fun with people I hardly knew.
- Allergies were killing me.
Sunday:
- Didn't get to go to church.
+ Went to my cousins Matt and Justin's open house in Grand Ledge and saw my uncle Joel who lives in Baltimore; we all had [probably way too much] fun picking on my [absent] aunt, uncle, and cousins' 'size.'
+ Picked up more dishes from my grandma. I have like 19 plates and 15 cups...plus the rest. I even have a sugar bowl/creamer thingy! Aaaand my mom keeps finding more on eBay.
- Didn't get to go to Dan's open house. [And missed tasty Mexican! So upset...]
+ Went to my cousin Melissa's open house.
- Was insanely exhausted from taking Benadryl for my allergies and ended up going out to the car and taking a half hour nap while my mom talked to her relatives.
+ Went home and took another nap until past 10.
Last night I had a horrible dream. Megan was driving Brian, Marshall, Megan, and I to Meijer late at night. She ran like a total of 3 red lights [she really doesn't have her license yet] and she was mad at me that I kept saying, "Red light, red light, RED LIGHT," every time she'd pull up to a red light for which she wasn't stopping; and Brian was saying the same thing. Then she got mad at me for being rude and selfish, when I was doing everything I possibly could to be a good friend: I was polite, helpful, fairly quiet, and even sharing whatever snack I brought with Megan S. While we were on the escalator [they have them in Meijer now apparently] down, about to leave, she starts telling me off, and I ask her what I'm doing to upset her and be a bad friend, and she says I'm doing all these things, of which I'm really doing the opposite. Then I finally ask why she's friends with Marshall now, after all he's done, and not with me. She says, "I hurt him first; he was hurting me out of retaliation." Then I say, "You hurt me first; I was just doing it out of retaliation!" She doesn't buy it though, and I end up walking away from all of them. But then I realize that I had no ride home, so she lets me back in the car, and she runs more red lights.
Any dream analyzers out there?
Now go here: Ironic?
Today I had a physics test...but it was easier than I expected. Steph went shopping with her mom again so I had to drive home by myself. Good thing I like driving alone. Too bad I didn't have to drive the Buick this time...that was fun.
My grandparents left a little after I got home. I actually didn't want them to leave this time. Eh...maybe my grandma's growing on me.
I finally did my chores; my mom said if I did them and cleaned out her van she'd give me money to go up north so obviously I went for that.
Didn't really do anything before heading off to Bible study, but I had to miss another wedding shower for Ash. This one was with the women at Tommy's church so it was just a bunch of people she didn't know...kind of felt badly so it's a good thing Amber went.
Bible study was just what I needed. It gave me hope, something I've definitely been lacking lately. Aaaand I got to see Nick! He's the first UM friend I've seen all summer. Despite the constant short jokes, I miss him. He's not just comic relief, but he actually cares. The night I finally talked to Brian after our hiatus of communication I went to our prayer meeting and I stayed after and talked to Nick about the whole situation. It wasn't that he had a lot of great advice, but the fact that he just listened and tried to make me feel better about everything. I didn't really get close to anyone at school, but he was one of the select few to whom I did feel closest. It was just good to see him. A friendly, familiar face. One who actually wants to spend time with me. That's always a plus...
Physics review today. Final tomorrow. Then it's OVER.
Let me tell you a story
Of a little girl who had lost her way
In search for something to make it a better day
But all she seemed to find
Was a world of hurt and pain
And a place that didn't seem to care that she'd lost her way
So the girl began to cry
Yes, the girl began to cry
Does anyone love me?
Does anyone care?
Is anyone out there?
That finds me lovely
That finds me lovely
That finds me lovely?
Just when the little girl had lost all hope
Well, along came a man that ushered her in
He held her to His chest
And He said, "Little girl, it's time that you rest"
He opened up His arms
And said, "I've been searching for you for some time
Now, little girl, you have found a home
And no longer shall you roam"
Then the man began to cry
Yes, the man began to cry
Don't you know I love you?
Don't you know I care?
And I will always be here
And I find you lovely
Yes, I find you lovely
Yes I find you so so lovely
I find you lovely...
Yes, I find you lovely
+ Made a cake for my grandparents' 50th anniversary.
- My aunt and uncle came and I had to pretend I had things to say to them after not seeing them for like 3 or 4 years.
- My uncle creeps me out and my aunt is going deaf.
+ Picked up my bridesmaid dress [and it FITS!]
+ My grandparents finally came to their own party [surprise was ruined because it was the only way to get them down here from the upper peninsula].
+ Watched Degrassi.
Saturday:
+ Wore my dress around the house for a little bit...go ahead, laugh, but just so you know, I look pretty spiffy in it. hah.
- - Felt ultra depressed and broke down in front of my mom and grandma and said "I'm not happy."
+ Went to Sidra's/Shanna's open house and surprisingly had a lot of fun with people I hardly knew.
- Allergies were killing me.
Sunday:
- Didn't get to go to church.
+ Went to my cousins Matt and Justin's open house in Grand Ledge and saw my uncle Joel who lives in Baltimore; we all had [probably way too much] fun picking on my [absent] aunt, uncle, and cousins' 'size.'
+ Picked up more dishes from my grandma. I have like 19 plates and 15 cups...plus the rest. I even have a sugar bowl/creamer thingy! Aaaand my mom keeps finding more on eBay.
- Didn't get to go to Dan's open house. [And missed tasty Mexican! So upset...]
+ Went to my cousin Melissa's open house.
- Was insanely exhausted from taking Benadryl for my allergies and ended up going out to the car and taking a half hour nap while my mom talked to her relatives.
+ Went home and took another nap until past 10.
Last night I had a horrible dream. Megan was driving Brian, Marshall, Megan, and I to Meijer late at night. She ran like a total of 3 red lights [she really doesn't have her license yet] and she was mad at me that I kept saying, "Red light, red light, RED LIGHT," every time she'd pull up to a red light for which she wasn't stopping; and Brian was saying the same thing. Then she got mad at me for being rude and selfish, when I was doing everything I possibly could to be a good friend: I was polite, helpful, fairly quiet, and even sharing whatever snack I brought with Megan S. While we were on the escalator [they have them in Meijer now apparently] down, about to leave, she starts telling me off, and I ask her what I'm doing to upset her and be a bad friend, and she says I'm doing all these things, of which I'm really doing the opposite. Then I finally ask why she's friends with Marshall now, after all he's done, and not with me. She says, "I hurt him first; he was hurting me out of retaliation." Then I say, "You hurt me first; I was just doing it out of retaliation!" She doesn't buy it though, and I end up walking away from all of them. But then I realize that I had no ride home, so she lets me back in the car, and she runs more red lights.
Any dream analyzers out there?
Now go here: Ironic?
Today I had a physics test...but it was easier than I expected. Steph went shopping with her mom again so I had to drive home by myself. Good thing I like driving alone. Too bad I didn't have to drive the Buick this time...that was fun.
My grandparents left a little after I got home. I actually didn't want them to leave this time. Eh...maybe my grandma's growing on me.
I finally did my chores; my mom said if I did them and cleaned out her van she'd give me money to go up north so obviously I went for that.
Didn't really do anything before heading off to Bible study, but I had to miss another wedding shower for Ash. This one was with the women at Tommy's church so it was just a bunch of people she didn't know...kind of felt badly so it's a good thing Amber went.
Bible study was just what I needed. It gave me hope, something I've definitely been lacking lately. Aaaand I got to see Nick! He's the first UM friend I've seen all summer. Despite the constant short jokes, I miss him. He's not just comic relief, but he actually cares. The night I finally talked to Brian after our hiatus of communication I went to our prayer meeting and I stayed after and talked to Nick about the whole situation. It wasn't that he had a lot of great advice, but the fact that he just listened and tried to make me feel better about everything. I didn't really get close to anyone at school, but he was one of the select few to whom I did feel closest. It was just good to see him. A friendly, familiar face. One who actually wants to spend time with me. That's always a plus...
Physics review today. Final tomorrow. Then it's OVER.
Let me tell you a story
Of a little girl who had lost her way
In search for something to make it a better day
But all she seemed to find
Was a world of hurt and pain
And a place that didn't seem to care that she'd lost her way
So the girl began to cry
Yes, the girl began to cry
Does anyone love me?
Does anyone care?
Is anyone out there?
That finds me lovely
That finds me lovely
That finds me lovely?
Just when the little girl had lost all hope
Well, along came a man that ushered her in
He held her to His chest
And He said, "Little girl, it's time that you rest"
He opened up His arms
And said, "I've been searching for you for some time
Now, little girl, you have found a home
And no longer shall you roam"
Then the man began to cry
Yes, the man began to cry
Don't you know I love you?
Don't you know I care?
And I will always be here
And I find you lovely
Yes, I find you lovely
Yes I find you so so lovely
I find you lovely...
Yes, I find you lovely