Losing it.

[lizzzzbro]

I've never felt like killing myself..
this is weird..

I feel no reason to be living other then... I know its selfish.
it is really.

Life has gone down this hole...

Zaks brother has cancer....
me and zak now live together...
oddly enough its making be better.
I have a car. & license.
I have an amazing job..
people who care and yet...

I feel lost.
amazing how one can feel this way and have no reason to feel it.
Its this birth control... 
I have a feeling... if i went back to the other kind i was on I'd be fine!
...fuck this.