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[lizzzyb]

I kind of gave up on LJ, for no apparent reason
But now im writing

because im bored, and sick, and havnt seen anyone other than my family and the real estate angent (damn women dosnt go away) since thursday. and i have homework to do, but i cant focus enough to do it and am instead thinking up good excuses for tomorrow, theyre all partially true (i really couldnt do anything untill today. and i miss human contact, but everyone seems really weird lately and i feel like almost everyone is really distant and weird and things arnt right but i dont know how it happened.

i miss people. a lot.

and i know i need to work realyl hard (my grades are decent, but they arnt as stellar as they need to be for the schools i want) but i dont have the energy

and i have to do hot mikado stuff, but again, im too tired. and i keep on having these weird dreams of bad things happening at crew because i didnt know how to do something.

and i really need to clean my room, cause it a mess, cause ive barely left it for the past few days.

i kind of want to go rent a ton of movies and just veg out.

but i know i shouldnt

i found a really good safety school. i think.

i need to work on my columbia summer thingy essay

i need to do community service.

i want to curl up with my giant pile of books im dying to read but i dont have the time, and i couldnt read while i was sick cause it hurt my brain. even if they were silly books.

i should go do all these things. or at least the things i need to do.

also. i need to see people. especially certain people.

well. off to attempt to not be lazy