overwhelming
lately i have just been overwhelmed with such conflicting emotions. and not that its like different thoughts about one thing, but just like compleatly seperate things that make me feel compleatly different ways fighting for my attention. and now at the core of it im just kinda stunned
friday i relaxed and played in the snow and went to kearas for a bit, and it was fun and a little weird cause life is weird and yeah. and then saturday, i decorated my house with my mom, and i love that, then casey came over and we had a gilmore fest, and talked, a lot, and i was an old woman, and i felt better after talking for a while cause i missed that. and today i did piles of homework and SAT tutor work and all the stuff that had just been piling up for like a month. and then pete came over, and we watched batman begins, and i was just happy for that pure and simple fact of everything being good and comfortable.
so my weekend was weird and wonderful and relaxing and stressful and full of that happy perfect comfy cozy kind of love, with a dose of very strong dislike, and a bit of overwhelming sadness.
and then i found out that mike plunkett died.
and i just dont know what to say.
i havnt spoken to him in years, i never really knew him at all actually. in middle school i always thought he was really cool, and wished i could be friends with someone like him. and i didnt know anything about him, and i still dont really... but he was interesting and funny and i just thought he was really cool. then i just didnt see him, and i donno... now hes gone
and its so strange cause i feel awful and i cant even imagine whats going through the minds of his friends, his family.
damn car accidents
and so adding to my list of emotions... that paralizing saddness, that your not sure you even have the right to feel, because what makes mike any different from any other car accident victim that i didnt really know? Its all too terrible.
rip mike
i dont even know what to say
friday i relaxed and played in the snow and went to kearas for a bit, and it was fun and a little weird cause life is weird and yeah. and then saturday, i decorated my house with my mom, and i love that, then casey came over and we had a gilmore fest, and talked, a lot, and i was an old woman, and i felt better after talking for a while cause i missed that. and today i did piles of homework and SAT tutor work and all the stuff that had just been piling up for like a month. and then pete came over, and we watched batman begins, and i was just happy for that pure and simple fact of everything being good and comfortable.
so my weekend was weird and wonderful and relaxing and stressful and full of that happy perfect comfy cozy kind of love, with a dose of very strong dislike, and a bit of overwhelming sadness.
and then i found out that mike plunkett died.
and i just dont know what to say.
i havnt spoken to him in years, i never really knew him at all actually. in middle school i always thought he was really cool, and wished i could be friends with someone like him. and i didnt know anything about him, and i still dont really... but he was interesting and funny and i just thought he was really cool. then i just didnt see him, and i donno... now hes gone
and its so strange cause i feel awful and i cant even imagine whats going through the minds of his friends, his family.
damn car accidents
and so adding to my list of emotions... that paralizing saddness, that your not sure you even have the right to feel, because what makes mike any different from any other car accident victim that i didnt really know? Its all too terrible.
rip mike
i dont even know what to say