i have a life again?
so, haunted house is over. it was awsome, we made tons and tons of money, we had a lot of fun, i got a fake nose and freaked people out. also compleatly exhausted myself and fell way behind in my work, all resulting in numerous panic attacks and not knwoing how to dial a phone... oy
i just want it to be 2 years from now. i dont want to deal with high school, or my mother making me look at colleges (guess what im doing next weekend? my first and last weekend in 2 months? yeah, thats right, MA for college visits... colleges im not even interested in) i just want to be in college. i dont want to be working my ass for no reason, i dont want to feel left out/ left behind/ like a little kid cause thats how ive been feeling. im jsut so sick of it. oy. this is probably just mental break down talking, im just fusterated, and time seems to be crawling by except for when i actually need it. and my brain is over thinking and im kind of in a state of panic.
anyway, halloween is tomorrow. i love halloween, probably one of my favorite holidays, awsome stuff. but let me tell you all... i look AWFUL like HIDEOUS DISGUSTING GROSS BEATEN WITH AN UGLY STICK UGLY as a blonde. its really really terrible. uck, i dont think i will ever die my hair... i just look hideous with anything other that basically black brown.
im tired. goodnight
where have you gone?
i just want it to be 2 years from now. i dont want to deal with high school, or my mother making me look at colleges (guess what im doing next weekend? my first and last weekend in 2 months? yeah, thats right, MA for college visits... colleges im not even interested in) i just want to be in college. i dont want to be working my ass for no reason, i dont want to feel left out/ left behind/ like a little kid cause thats how ive been feeling. im jsut so sick of it. oy. this is probably just mental break down talking, im just fusterated, and time seems to be crawling by except for when i actually need it. and my brain is over thinking and im kind of in a state of panic.
anyway, halloween is tomorrow. i love halloween, probably one of my favorite holidays, awsome stuff. but let me tell you all... i look AWFUL like HIDEOUS DISGUSTING GROSS BEATEN WITH AN UGLY STICK UGLY as a blonde. its really really terrible. uck, i dont think i will ever die my hair... i just look hideous with anything other that basically black brown.
im tired. goodnight
where have you gone?