bad night. A lot of blood, but it's not helping... and I've worried Bella because I texted her. And mum argued with Uncle Edward today because of me...
It's just a normal day for me. *shrugs* Mum and Uncle Edward arguing wasn't normal, but Mum was just asking him to stop prodding me. He keeps telling me to give in and just do it. She asked him to stop saying it to me. He told her that denying my nature was just making life harder for me... maybe he's right.
I've thrown up three times, I really don't want to do it again... ugh.
You have to live with yourself in the end and because of that I think you have to go with your gut, hun. Don't let anyone tell you what is right for you ...
As for the throwing up I don't have any advice for that other then laying down and maybe drinking a small glass of ginger ale.
*softly* I know. Thank you. I need to hear it... I'm just so tired of fighting. I just want to lay down and let the world happen around me and just be fully mad, if that's what I'm heading toward. I'm quite simply shattered, in every sense of the word.
Laying down hasn't helped... I was more just griping that I've done it, not asking you to fix it. *smiles a little*
I understand. Its always easier to lay back and let things come as they may then it is to fight ... but thats part of what makes the fight so rewarding.
I think you have to much strength and pride in you to quit just because it's easier or you would have done it already.
Harry smiled back. I'm just concerned, I want to help how ever I can ... though I admit my home remedy knowledge sucks. I didn't really have a mom or dad around long enough to impart that wisdom upon me.
It would be easier, but you're right, I likely won't quit, ever... unless I give in. Then I might as well not fight anymore.
I know you are. Everyone's concerned and I wish no one was. I mean, I know everyone is concerned because they care, but it breaks me a little to know it's my fault they hurt. As for home remedies, Mum's tried to give me peppermint tea, and I threw up again, then she tried Ginger steeped in water with some honey. I didn't throw that up, but I hate it. *laughs softly*
*laughs softly* I think everything in life is trial and error. What you did miss out on is the mum and dad thing of touching your forehead and petting your hair, watching you like they're worried half to death... And for that, I'm dreadfully sorry. Because there's nothing like it in the world. *frowns*
I need gauze, but I can't leave my room. Bullocks. Oh, wait, I might have some plasters in my bag... ignore me, I'm babbling. I do this.
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I've thrown up three times, I really don't want to do it again... ugh.
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As for the throwing up I don't have any advice for that other then laying down and maybe drinking a small glass of ginger ale.
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Laying down hasn't helped... I was more just griping that I've done it, not asking you to fix it. *smiles a little*
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I think you have to much strength and pride in you to quit just because it's easier or you would have done it already.
Harry smiled back. I'm just concerned, I want to help how ever I can ... though I admit my home remedy knowledge sucks. I didn't really have a mom or dad around long enough to impart that wisdom upon me.
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I know you are. Everyone's concerned and I wish no one was. I mean, I know everyone is concerned because they care, but it breaks me a little to know it's my fault they hurt. As for home remedies, Mum's tried to give me peppermint tea, and I threw up again, then she tried Ginger steeped in water with some honey. I didn't throw that up, but I hate it. *laughs softly*
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I need gauze, but I can't leave my room. Bullocks. Oh, wait, I might have some plasters in my bag... ignore me, I'm babbling. I do this.
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Gauze is for the cutting right?
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Yeah. I cover it as much as possible, even now that everyone knows.
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