syc-a-more...get it?
What a fun day...
I'm so excited about moving!
I need to change my layout for livejournal, mine sucks.
Future neighbor Lo, wanna help?
I think I finally have most everything figured out.
Don't you think it's funny how people find these people, sleep with them, and then all of a sudden it's love/marriage/life together. (No worries girls, I'm not talking about you at all. Y'all have proven your love, especially Loren who has gone through and put up with a lot more than most people would have.) But, yeah. Maybe I'm just being naive. I've been thinking about it for awhile though.
You know, one thing I really do love about my job is having all of the really old people come in. Some of them are just really bitter and don't really talk. But others look at you with a sense of glory. It's like when they look at you they remember back to the days when they were going to school and all the stuff that we are going through right now. I really love it, almost makes everything better. And then when you get the talkers, well they are just great. There is this one old guy, Mr.Butcher (the hat guy) who always tells me that he can read my mind, that he worked with women for 30 years and he could tell exactly what was going through my head. No, I didn't ask him what was going through my head because I think I'm a bit more fucked up from life than he thinks I am. Although, I'm not really fucked up at all..at least compared to some of the people in my life. Which I think is a good thing because it allows me to experience a different part of life - a part of life that was hidden from me and emotions that I was never really allowed to let in. The craziest thing about all of this is that my youngest sister Laura is a totally different person now than she was before my Grandpa died. She's hurt. I think she's really confused and has no real way of getting it out around my parents. They turn everything into a God issue, which isn't bad but at the same time..it's like..give me a break..we're kids let us go through this shit without you telling us that our belief in God isn't strong enough. Don't get me wrong, I think my parents did a great job - I just don't think my Dad necessarily knows how to handle Laura while she's still dealing with the thought that someone can just up and disappear from her life without a moments notice. Someone who's always been there, basically the rock of the family. You think of them as untouchable, unbreakable and then all of a sudden we're dividing out his life belongings. It bothers me too (obviously). But not as much as it bothers her. She just feels things so deeply that she will go a night sleeping with no blankets because she knows there are people out there who don't have any.
Wow, sorry for that random ramble.
Okay, I suppose I should go home and grab something to eat and get ready to head back into the wrath to help out a bit.
A big thanks to neighbor Lo for letting me borrow her computer!
I promise mine will be back in working order soon enough. :)
My new favorite song:
Ryan Shupe & The Rubberbands
When you cry be sure to dry your eyes, cuz better days are sure to come
When you smile be sure to smile wide and dont let them know that they have won
When you walk, walk with pride dont show the hurt inside because the pain will soon be gone
Chorus
When you Dream, Dream Big
As big as the ocean blue
Cuz when u dream it might come true
When you dream, Dream big
And when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud cuz it will carry all your cares away
And when you see, see the beauty all around and in yourself it will help you feel okay
And when you pray, pray for strength to help you carry on when the troubles come your way
Chorus
When you Dream, Dream Big
As big as the ocean blue
Cuz when u dream it might come true
When you dream, Dream big
Dream Big (x 2)
And when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud cuz it will carry all your cares away
And when you see, see the beauty all around and in yourself and it will help you feel okay
And when you pray, pray for strength to help you carry on when the troubles come your way
Chorus
When you Dream, Dream Big
As big as the ocean blue
Cuz when u dream it might come true
When you dream, Dream big
I'm so excited about moving!
I need to change my layout for livejournal, mine sucks.
Future neighbor Lo, wanna help?
I think I finally have most everything figured out.
Don't you think it's funny how people find these people, sleep with them, and then all of a sudden it's love/marriage/life together. (No worries girls, I'm not talking about you at all. Y'all have proven your love, especially Loren who has gone through and put up with a lot more than most people would have.) But, yeah. Maybe I'm just being naive. I've been thinking about it for awhile though.
You know, one thing I really do love about my job is having all of the really old people come in. Some of them are just really bitter and don't really talk. But others look at you with a sense of glory. It's like when they look at you they remember back to the days when they were going to school and all the stuff that we are going through right now. I really love it, almost makes everything better. And then when you get the talkers, well they are just great. There is this one old guy, Mr.Butcher (the hat guy) who always tells me that he can read my mind, that he worked with women for 30 years and he could tell exactly what was going through my head. No, I didn't ask him what was going through my head because I think I'm a bit more fucked up from life than he thinks I am. Although, I'm not really fucked up at all..at least compared to some of the people in my life. Which I think is a good thing because it allows me to experience a different part of life - a part of life that was hidden from me and emotions that I was never really allowed to let in. The craziest thing about all of this is that my youngest sister Laura is a totally different person now than she was before my Grandpa died. She's hurt. I think she's really confused and has no real way of getting it out around my parents. They turn everything into a God issue, which isn't bad but at the same time..it's like..give me a break..we're kids let us go through this shit without you telling us that our belief in God isn't strong enough. Don't get me wrong, I think my parents did a great job - I just don't think my Dad necessarily knows how to handle Laura while she's still dealing with the thought that someone can just up and disappear from her life without a moments notice. Someone who's always been there, basically the rock of the family. You think of them as untouchable, unbreakable and then all of a sudden we're dividing out his life belongings. It bothers me too (obviously). But not as much as it bothers her. She just feels things so deeply that she will go a night sleeping with no blankets because she knows there are people out there who don't have any.
Wow, sorry for that random ramble.
Okay, I suppose I should go home and grab something to eat and get ready to head back into the wrath to help out a bit.
A big thanks to neighbor Lo for letting me borrow her computer!
I promise mine will be back in working order soon enough. :)
My new favorite song:
Ryan Shupe & The Rubberbands
When you cry be sure to dry your eyes, cuz better days are sure to come
When you smile be sure to smile wide and dont let them know that they have won
When you walk, walk with pride dont show the hurt inside because the pain will soon be gone
Chorus
When you Dream, Dream Big
As big as the ocean blue
Cuz when u dream it might come true
When you dream, Dream big
And when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud cuz it will carry all your cares away
And when you see, see the beauty all around and in yourself it will help you feel okay
And when you pray, pray for strength to help you carry on when the troubles come your way
Chorus
When you Dream, Dream Big
As big as the ocean blue
Cuz when u dream it might come true
When you dream, Dream big
Dream Big (x 2)
And when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud cuz it will carry all your cares away
And when you see, see the beauty all around and in yourself and it will help you feel okay
And when you pray, pray for strength to help you carry on when the troubles come your way
Chorus
When you Dream, Dream Big
As big as the ocean blue
Cuz when u dream it might come true
When you dream, Dream big