Feb 16, 2005 12:28
Found this in the back of my journal entries - I'm gonna start listening to my own advice!!
So I still think about Kedric a lot, but I am beginning to think more about the big scheme of things. This will sound cheesy as all, but God has a plan for me. He won't let me be alone forever if I'm not meant to be - and I truly feel my calling is to build a strong family. So, I just need to stand patiently in line and wait for my angel to arrive. And when he does - I will know. And when he does - there won't be any of this bull shit forgetting stuff. Seriosuly. God knows exactly what he is doing - I've had to deal with these people for certain reasons - to learn certain things. One day things will change - one day God will say "Okay, Betsy (or Betty) today is your day"...and whatever is meant to happen will! So for right now I'm going to try to do a better job of enjoying the now and enjoying life for what it is - and not for what I want it to be. I'm single for a reason. I'm dealing with this shit for a reason. Time will tell, I just need to sit back and enjoy the ride.