WHERE ARE YOU TAKING ME, LIFE???
Ok, so, I think I may have multiple personalities; or at least, multiple personalities that I aspire to be because I didn't know enough about the one I have right now.
One aspiration I had was the one that landed me here. It seemed like such a spectacular thing to be able to help and interact with creatures that people wait to see their whole lives and to get to go on research projects to discover the unknown. I was to be an adventurer, a scientist, an employee for the planet.
I'm just now beginning to realize, though, that when it comes down to the nitty gritty tedium of science, I'm really not all that into it. I'm a crappy swimmer. I've only interacted with a dolphin once. And, while I love the thought of adventure, I also love the thought of security, especially job security, which Marine Biology does not have much of.
So, as I am realizing all this, my other aspiration which I had put on the backburner as "not adventurous enough" is now sounding more and more appealing. It seems I forgot how spiritually rewarding it was. Even though I was not making any milestone discoveries by observing the excrement of a type of fish I had on my dinner plate the previous night, I was making a difference in the lives of individuals that end up misunderstood by a large portion of society.
Maybe I never will get payed to work in Alaska, but I think by working with Special ed kids I can help more important discoveries be made about life in general than I could ever make about Marine Mammals.
Now the question is, what do I do now? I can't stay here. It's a spectacular place, but I'm beginning to learn that it's not the place to get what I need. I can move back to Austing my second semester, maybe knock the rest of my basics out at ACC. Then from there I can either transfer to A&M college station or UT.
If I go to UT, I will be able to save a lot of money by staying at home, but after some of the stuff that's been happening recently with my parents that really isn't too appealing. And what would I do with all the A&M clothing I've aquired since I've been here?
Then again, college station is just a small town that would be totally dead without the university.
I guess it all comes down to who has a better education program.
I know if I was a special ed teacher I would never have to worry about not having a job and it's something I already have plenty of experience in, but what if I don't want to do that, either? I don't particularly like the thought of being stuck in a school for the rest of my life or getting attatched to some of the kids that I know are just going to spend the rest of their lives staring into space in a "home" after they "graduate."
I really don't know what to do.
Oh, and I hate neopets. It wastes too much time if you want to be any good at it and the neopian adults group I joined clogs up my friends' page.
One aspiration I had was the one that landed me here. It seemed like such a spectacular thing to be able to help and interact with creatures that people wait to see their whole lives and to get to go on research projects to discover the unknown. I was to be an adventurer, a scientist, an employee for the planet.
I'm just now beginning to realize, though, that when it comes down to the nitty gritty tedium of science, I'm really not all that into it. I'm a crappy swimmer. I've only interacted with a dolphin once. And, while I love the thought of adventure, I also love the thought of security, especially job security, which Marine Biology does not have much of.
So, as I am realizing all this, my other aspiration which I had put on the backburner as "not adventurous enough" is now sounding more and more appealing. It seems I forgot how spiritually rewarding it was. Even though I was not making any milestone discoveries by observing the excrement of a type of fish I had on my dinner plate the previous night, I was making a difference in the lives of individuals that end up misunderstood by a large portion of society.
Maybe I never will get payed to work in Alaska, but I think by working with Special ed kids I can help more important discoveries be made about life in general than I could ever make about Marine Mammals.
Now the question is, what do I do now? I can't stay here. It's a spectacular place, but I'm beginning to learn that it's not the place to get what I need. I can move back to Austing my second semester, maybe knock the rest of my basics out at ACC. Then from there I can either transfer to A&M college station or UT.
If I go to UT, I will be able to save a lot of money by staying at home, but after some of the stuff that's been happening recently with my parents that really isn't too appealing. And what would I do with all the A&M clothing I've aquired since I've been here?
Then again, college station is just a small town that would be totally dead without the university.
I guess it all comes down to who has a better education program.
I know if I was a special ed teacher I would never have to worry about not having a job and it's something I already have plenty of experience in, but what if I don't want to do that, either? I don't particularly like the thought of being stuck in a school for the rest of my life or getting attatched to some of the kids that I know are just going to spend the rest of their lives staring into space in a "home" after they "graduate."
I really don't know what to do.
Oh, and I hate neopets. It wastes too much time if you want to be any good at it and the neopian adults group I joined clogs up my friends' page.