-Do YoU thiNk i DesErvE thiS-
I really don't feel like writing...I'm like this close __ to cutting the fuck outta myself...I'm so fuckin SIC of my fake smiles, and false hopes that bring me into each FUCKIN SUCKY ASS DAY!! I felt like shit in the morning. My dad made me go to a fuckin family reunion...He stole $10 from me. Amaris made him gie it back to me. Elaine annoyed the shit outta everyone on the drive home. Only good thing that happened today was I talked to Dylan Roth!! His life is almost as shitty as mine...At least I am not kicked outta my house...But yeah we both wanna die, and it's getting worse n worse ever min. Poor thing, I miss talking to him all the time...Ugh!!
I got some fuckin old as pix o the last family reunion we had at my Aunt Linda's house...From like October I suppose...[Note: Pictures are a tad large, not that big...And are extremely ugly!! View at your own risk.]
Me in the beginning of the year...
Too bad I'm F_U_G_L_Y!
That's Me, Amaris, and Vanessa (my cousin)...
Micheal (my cousin), Me, Amaris, and Vanessa (my cousin)...
Today...My family...What's left of it...
Micheal n his grrrl Heather...
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand...
I got some fuckin old as pix o the last family reunion we had at my Aunt Linda's house...From like October I suppose...[Note: Pictures are a tad large, not that big...And are extremely ugly!! View at your own risk.]
Me in the beginning of the year...
Too bad I'm F_U_G_L_Y!
That's Me, Amaris, and Vanessa (my cousin)...
Micheal (my cousin), Me, Amaris, and Vanessa (my cousin)...
Today...My family...What's left of it...
Micheal n his grrrl Heather...
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand...