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omfc!! fucking high school drama shit!! i hate fucking high school. omg!! wtf!!? fucking pple. rob is being sooo fucking bitter about shit...even KRISTIN is going aganinst me....kristin!!!! my best fucking friend. what the fuck is up with that? everyone is against me exept for Matt, Bethy, and Jake. which is good...but kristin? i never thought id be saying any of this. kristin hasnt even told me shes mad at me. i fucking asked her on monday and tuesday if she was mad and she said no. and then i hear from rob that shes been mad this whole time!!! what the fuck. so shes not even being honest at this point. and now i am mad at her. i wasnt really mad at her til now...and thats fucking stupid. my best friend, who supposedly she "doesnt know what shed do w/o, cuz im her best friend" and shes not even telling me how she feels about this fucking shit. god. and what am i supposed to do? i mean really? she walks with me everyday after school, she even called me on tuesday, and could have said something. and she hasent. well thats fucking bull shit. if im losing friends over this then fuck them. they need to relize that im not changing my mind. i dont care what they have to say. rob's like "well, i know hes (matt) just gonna fuck you over and treat you like shit" well...umm no...i think hes saying that cuz he just wants me to go w/ him. well. uhh NO. im not going to go out with him. my mom even said i cant talk to him or anything. i dont know why i even do...all we have been talking about is how much he wishes i was happy and how much he cares about me and doesnt want to see me hurt...well umm....news flash- they are the ones making me upset, they are the ones hurting me and IM HAPPY WITH MATT!!! they really need to understand that. how am i supposed to tell them that. well, i have told them that. they're saying im not listening to them...they are the ones not listening!! god. noone understands how fucking hard this is. and ive been really really moody lately...umm cuz everytime rob comes near me i freak out and like, get super fucking pissed. like today, i was in a really bad mood this morning...i walked into school and the FIRST fucking thing kristin says is "did you talk to james?" i was like "no." and she gave me this fucking look and it just pissed me off...i was like "dont give me that look, my mom made me get off the comp last night and i didnt get the chance" then i went to my locker...blah blah blah...then i finally was happy during 2nd. so yeah. i was happy up until like 5th. i dont even know why i was sooo fucking pissed, i just was. i think im bipolar. cuz one minute im happy, then the next i want to fucking kill someone. so right now im really really pissed off still!!! and yeah. im sorry beth jake and matt if im mean or bitchy with you. its just all this shit is really hard to deal with and i dont know what else to do about it. god. well yeah. im fucking tired...and im gonna go for now cuz im just really pissed off and dont know what to do.