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wow. alot of shit has gone down in the past couple days. mmkay...
...god i dont know what to say liz.....ive loved you since i got to know you, youve been the best thing thats happened to me in a long time....and something on the trust aspect, i trusted you when you said you loved me and told you you didnt want anyone, and i didnt do anything up here that would jeapordize us. and then magically one day u tell me that there's someone else...do you realize how much that crushed me and that i havent been able to do a productive thing since. I tried so hard to listen to you and be a vessel through which you could express what was bothering you, but it seemed like once i left you just stoped being open to me....and now i dont have you in my life and im really lost. You are a freaking amazing girl and your beautiful, smart, funny, and caring and just everything i look for in someone and more! I dont want to make you do anything you dont want to but i just really need you in my life right now, and i just feel lost now every day cause i cant think of you to make me smile at all, it just brings up thoughts of hurt and tears.......i truly love you liz and i need you as part of my life, i hope you understand
-Matt
okay...im updating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whoo hoo! mmmmhmmm...okay. me and matt had a "break" for three days, cuz im a bitch. he called me last naight and we talked for like two hours. like, the happiest two hours ive experienced in like...three weeks. we are back together now. and that made me even happier. i was acually happy in school today. :D woow. im just glad things are back to normal. im sooo sorry for all of the shit i caused, i dont want to lose matt. and i could have. and that would have been the worst mistake i could have ever made in my whole life. one choice could have changed everything. and im sooo glad that i was for once, samrt enough to make the right choice. i love matt and i know youre reading this sooo i love you baby, more then anything and im sorry for causing all of this. and i just want you to know that you saying that you are IN love w/ me yesturday, was the best thing you could have done. and im IN love with you. and i have been for a while. and i love you soo much...and im soo glad that i didnt lose you baby. i love you and nothing will change that.
...god i dont know what to say liz.....ive loved you since i got to know you, youve been the best thing thats happened to me in a long time....and something on the trust aspect, i trusted you when you said you loved me and told you you didnt want anyone, and i didnt do anything up here that would jeapordize us. and then magically one day u tell me that there's someone else...do you realize how much that crushed me and that i havent been able to do a productive thing since. I tried so hard to listen to you and be a vessel through which you could express what was bothering you, but it seemed like once i left you just stoped being open to me....and now i dont have you in my life and im really lost. You are a freaking amazing girl and your beautiful, smart, funny, and caring and just everything i look for in someone and more! I dont want to make you do anything you dont want to but i just really need you in my life right now, and i just feel lost now every day cause i cant think of you to make me smile at all, it just brings up thoughts of hurt and tears.......i truly love you liz and i need you as part of my life, i hope you understand
-Matt
okay...im updating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whoo hoo! mmmmhmmm...okay. me and matt had a "break" for three days, cuz im a bitch. he called me last naight and we talked for like two hours. like, the happiest two hours ive experienced in like...three weeks. we are back together now. and that made me even happier. i was acually happy in school today. :D woow. im just glad things are back to normal. im sooo sorry for all of the shit i caused, i dont want to lose matt. and i could have. and that would have been the worst mistake i could have ever made in my whole life. one choice could have changed everything. and im sooo glad that i was for once, samrt enough to make the right choice. i love matt and i know youre reading this sooo i love you baby, more then anything and im sorry for causing all of this. and i just want you to know that you saying that you are IN love w/ me yesturday, was the best thing you could have done. and im IN love with you. and i have been for a while. and i love you soo much...and im soo glad that i didnt lose you baby. i love you and nothing will change that.