Update
Well mom came back home at around 4:55 and that is the time her work ends so she went to work and came back if that is what she wanted to do why did she do the whole drama in the middle.. i think it would have been better if she would have left it alone...but i guess she just wanted to see how many people actualy care for her.
i went for a walk later then for about an hour or so and i was thinking i should tell Maria about it.. i mean she is my co-worker she is a mother too, and she did say she is willing to listen.. but then what if she just said that to make me feel better and she doesn't want to listen to me .. oh well i guess i will decide if to tell her or not at the last min...like i do with most things.
i wish i could talk to peter i mean i understand that he has his own life but at times like these i really wish he could be available like i would just call him and stuff which ofcourse i can't do that.
i have been thinking and i think it is better for me to just be quiet and not really involved with parents anymore...i don't really want to talk to anyone of them.. i don't think i will like really try to create a relationship again with them.. it is just too much.
i don't think they are going to buy the new house... there final deal is tom and tom they are going to get the keys but don't think they are going to go to close the deal and buy the house because today dad was talking to someone about it and he was like "they wil give my money back right" and the women called to to tell him that tom is the close the deal thing and he refused to talk to her and told me "we don't want the house"
maybe there is no use of wishing for good things as far as i live in this family since it doesn't seem like there is ever anything good going to happen.. i mean they were going to buy the house and now they don't want to.. thats what i hate about them .. its like they give you this big huge dream and hope that oh look you are going to have your own bedroom, new beds, a new house and all that and then its like oh we were just playing with your emotions... this family is filled with nutcases.
i went for a walk later then for about an hour or so and i was thinking i should tell Maria about it.. i mean she is my co-worker she is a mother too, and she did say she is willing to listen.. but then what if she just said that to make me feel better and she doesn't want to listen to me .. oh well i guess i will decide if to tell her or not at the last min...like i do with most things.
i wish i could talk to peter i mean i understand that he has his own life but at times like these i really wish he could be available like i would just call him and stuff which ofcourse i can't do that.
i have been thinking and i think it is better for me to just be quiet and not really involved with parents anymore...i don't really want to talk to anyone of them.. i don't think i will like really try to create a relationship again with them.. it is just too much.
i don't think they are going to buy the new house... there final deal is tom and tom they are going to get the keys but don't think they are going to go to close the deal and buy the house because today dad was talking to someone about it and he was like "they wil give my money back right" and the women called to to tell him that tom is the close the deal thing and he refused to talk to her and told me "we don't want the house"
maybe there is no use of wishing for good things as far as i live in this family since it doesn't seem like there is ever anything good going to happen.. i mean they were going to buy the house and now they don't want to.. thats what i hate about them .. its like they give you this big huge dream and hope that oh look you are going to have your own bedroom, new beds, a new house and all that and then its like oh we were just playing with your emotions... this family is filled with nutcases.