Where are we running.....
I've been having trouble sleeping lately, partly because I keep thinking about really important things right before I fall asleep and then I can't fall asleep anymore. It's really starting to piss me off, I had to fall asleep in front of the TV the other night at 1:00 AM b/c I just couldn't fall asleep, then I had a really restless night and it just sucked..
I think it's mostly because I know people who are graduating this year and then it hits me that almost all my friends are graduating next year and then I'LL BE GRADUATING. I am so afraid to graduate, what the hell am I going to do without all my friends. I know we won't all end up at the same college especially since I have no interest in going anywhere in Iowa except Luther. I'm so worried about making new friends and getting through my classes. I don't know what I want to major in and it just scares me that I'm going to have to go live on my own in two years without anyone. I'm worried about getting into the college of my dreams and ACT's. I also really need scholarships to go to these private schools I want and ARGH! It just freaks me out a little bit.
I got back from my grandma's house at 11:30 last night. Let me tell ya that was a whole lot of fucking fun...I didn't do a damn thing all weekend, I seriously sat around on Friday and Saturday and did absolutely nothing, there was no point of me even being there. My grandma is just really weird too, she likes to take pictures of me and my little sister so she can show and brag about us to her friends...her friends also come over to see how good of a gardening job my mom did to her front lawn. Is that all old people worry about? It's like a competition around the block, let's see who has the best grandchild and the best recipe collection, it drives me insane. She even makes me play my violin for like three of her friends and brags about how good I am...I'm not that good. The only good thing about going to her house is that since she is on the Police Commission, we can get in for free to any movie we want. So guess what I did, I went and saw Raising Helen this weekend, it was funny as hell.
Also, this was a miracle or something but every time I go on a road trip or whatever I always fall asleep, I even fall asleep to Cedar Rapids and Williamsburg. Usually I put on my walkman and about two and a half songs later I'm dead for like the rest of the trip. But no, this weekend I didn't fall asleep ONCE, it was a freakin miracle. I have never seen the scenery of the entire trip because I always fall asleep. It's so pretty, the countryside is gorgeous in Illinois, so green.
Now I'm just rambling so I am going to go lay out and read on my back porch since I have nothing better to do. Adios!
I think it's mostly because I know people who are graduating this year and then it hits me that almost all my friends are graduating next year and then I'LL BE GRADUATING. I am so afraid to graduate, what the hell am I going to do without all my friends. I know we won't all end up at the same college especially since I have no interest in going anywhere in Iowa except Luther. I'm so worried about making new friends and getting through my classes. I don't know what I want to major in and it just scares me that I'm going to have to go live on my own in two years without anyone. I'm worried about getting into the college of my dreams and ACT's. I also really need scholarships to go to these private schools I want and ARGH! It just freaks me out a little bit.
I got back from my grandma's house at 11:30 last night. Let me tell ya that was a whole lot of fucking fun...I didn't do a damn thing all weekend, I seriously sat around on Friday and Saturday and did absolutely nothing, there was no point of me even being there. My grandma is just really weird too, she likes to take pictures of me and my little sister so she can show and brag about us to her friends...her friends also come over to see how good of a gardening job my mom did to her front lawn. Is that all old people worry about? It's like a competition around the block, let's see who has the best grandchild and the best recipe collection, it drives me insane. She even makes me play my violin for like three of her friends and brags about how good I am...I'm not that good. The only good thing about going to her house is that since she is on the Police Commission, we can get in for free to any movie we want. So guess what I did, I went and saw Raising Helen this weekend, it was funny as hell.
Also, this was a miracle or something but every time I go on a road trip or whatever I always fall asleep, I even fall asleep to Cedar Rapids and Williamsburg. Usually I put on my walkman and about two and a half songs later I'm dead for like the rest of the trip. But no, this weekend I didn't fall asleep ONCE, it was a freakin miracle. I have never seen the scenery of the entire trip because I always fall asleep. It's so pretty, the countryside is gorgeous in Illinois, so green.
Now I'm just rambling so I am going to go lay out and read on my back porch since I have nothing better to do. Adios!