Time for Liz to fucking VENT!!!
Okay, so honestly, I'm not as angry as my title would dipict me as. I'm just fucking apathetic. I'm fucking retarded. I'm fucking pissed off at people. I have become so anti- social. Partly because I hate being around my friends right now because I don't have a fucking job. And partly because most of my friends have fucking disappeared. Those fucking bitches. But the way I see it, I'd much rather feel like this than work for that fucking loser Jarett.*barf gag choke*
Tommorrow I'm going to apply EVERYWHERE. This would be the perfect time for me to work in retail because this is around the time where everyone is hiring for the holiday season. I'm going to the GAP, Urban Outfitters, Starbucks, Lucky Brand Jeans, Victoria's Secret... everywhere!! I'm going to south beach and aventura mall and I will not stop until I'M FUCKING EMPLOYED!!! Dammit!
The trick is to get a job @ a big company so I can transfer to a Los Angeles location. Ahhh..LA... I'll get to you later!!
I want cookies so badly. I'm trying so hard to lose weight and it's not helping to be unempolyed. Only because I just sit at home all fucking day long and make jewelry. Oh yea, I can apply at Mayors. But I have no fucking dress suits. GODDAMMIT!!! I can really use an apple-tini right now.
I've lost 7 lbs since Eddie left. I just have to remember how much fun it was to be thinner. ARGH.. i hate everything right now!!!!!
It has hit me how much I really miss Eddie. I hate being lonely. The only time when I'm not lonely is when I sleep and I haven't been able to do that either. What the hell is wrong with me?
I miss having money. I miss working. I miss Los Angeles. I miss my Eddie. I miss my mom. I miss being able to do and buy whatever I want. I miss having fun. I miss being me. I miss LIZ. What have I fucking done to feel like this? Why do I feel like this?
I think I may be feeling like this because I'm not being productive in my life. I have so many things going for me and I'm scared.
Now about Los Angeles...
I wish I was already there. Everyday I'm hating Miami more and more. I can't wait when I move in to an apartment in Venice with Eddie and start working. I swear it'll be the best. On our days off, we'll go have coffee and go to shows. I'll save enough money to go to cosmetology school and then the Westmore Acadamy and off to Hollywood to become a make-up special effects artist. I mean it sounds a lot simpler than what it really is. But what the hell am I doing here?? Sitting around and writing in my fucking live journal wishing I was somewhere else.
Well, I feel better.
TEEHEE!
Fuck it! I MUST FIND A FUCKING JOB SOON!!
Tommorrow I'm going to apply EVERYWHERE. This would be the perfect time for me to work in retail because this is around the time where everyone is hiring for the holiday season. I'm going to the GAP, Urban Outfitters, Starbucks, Lucky Brand Jeans, Victoria's Secret... everywhere!! I'm going to south beach and aventura mall and I will not stop until I'M FUCKING EMPLOYED!!! Dammit!
The trick is to get a job @ a big company so I can transfer to a Los Angeles location. Ahhh..LA... I'll get to you later!!
I want cookies so badly. I'm trying so hard to lose weight and it's not helping to be unempolyed. Only because I just sit at home all fucking day long and make jewelry. Oh yea, I can apply at Mayors. But I have no fucking dress suits. GODDAMMIT!!! I can really use an apple-tini right now.
I've lost 7 lbs since Eddie left. I just have to remember how much fun it was to be thinner. ARGH.. i hate everything right now!!!!!
It has hit me how much I really miss Eddie. I hate being lonely. The only time when I'm not lonely is when I sleep and I haven't been able to do that either. What the hell is wrong with me?
I miss having money. I miss working. I miss Los Angeles. I miss my Eddie. I miss my mom. I miss being able to do and buy whatever I want. I miss having fun. I miss being me. I miss LIZ. What have I fucking done to feel like this? Why do I feel like this?
I think I may be feeling like this because I'm not being productive in my life. I have so many things going for me and I'm scared.
Now about Los Angeles...
I wish I was already there. Everyday I'm hating Miami more and more. I can't wait when I move in to an apartment in Venice with Eddie and start working. I swear it'll be the best. On our days off, we'll go have coffee and go to shows. I'll save enough money to go to cosmetology school and then the Westmore Acadamy and off to Hollywood to become a make-up special effects artist. I mean it sounds a lot simpler than what it really is. But what the hell am I doing here?? Sitting around and writing in my fucking live journal wishing I was somewhere else.
Well, I feel better.
TEEHEE!
Fuck it! I MUST FIND A FUCKING JOB SOON!!