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well today was okay i guess....got up at like noon and ya went online to talk to Kari then i layed around till about 3:30 cuz i had to be at work by 4....worked till 9:30....and right now i just have the worest feeling ever...i've had it for a few weeks now but not as bad as i do right now..which is leading me in tears but i really dont know what to do right now but cry....this feeling is more than i can handle and if its true i really dont wanna be alive anymore....i keep getting the feeling that Erik is gunna break up with me but why i dunno ugh....i dont feel like he really loves me anymore for some reason and i really feel like he thinks im doing/gunna do something behind his back or something which i would never ever do...id rather die than hurt him.....i know you all probably think im crazy but you know what..i could care less what you all think right now....no one knows how much i love him and no one will ever know or understand...i love him alot and he is truly the only guy one earth that i want to be with....and im dead serious right now.....I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO:'(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!