angel from my nightmare

[lizzie531]

i feel so delicate and small...breakable....i feel alone and tired and sick. i feel like rain slowly washing down the window. where are you to hold me like you did? i didn't want to cry myself to sleep so i lied to myself and said that i was strong and needed to be strong for him...but when i wake up i could only think about the hole in my own heart and how it feels. i could only feel something like fire running through my veins and anger and wonderment choking me...choking me to tears. why am i so fragile about this....why do you effect me so much. you don't just let go of something so beautiful and wonderful and lovely and rare. if i could make you see what i see and feel what i feel....but i can't...sometimes i only want to sleep because it feels better than being awake...but nothing feels as good as being with you....and nobody holds me.-end thought

tomorrow is my birthday.