i take advantage of myself and feel fine

[lizzie531]

everything i feel is open and it hurts....like taking a breath and it hurts deep down in your chest, and in your back....like someone knocking you out. flat and cold to the ground, you gasp for air....and your veins are running with adrenaline as you get back up frantically looking for an answer....and i just get lost in the music and the fairy tale words, maybe i start to believe them....and i'm not afraid of anything anymore because i feel numb. and the world is just a big joke to me....and everyone in it....until i can see you i suppose.....i feel nothing except the things you make me feel and the things i let myself feel...everything. everything about you, how you are perfect with all your imperfections....and how i can HEAR you smile, but i long to see it.....and the way you say you love me and how you call me baby.....so quietly, and the songs you scream...it's strangly beautiful....everything you do.....and my hands are shaking, and my legs aren't stable....and my minds a wreck, i'm a wall of nerves and hopes, running off of wishes and feelings....nothing stable. in a crowd knowing you won't be there but i search for your face everyday hopeing that i am wrong....

lets climb to the top of a mountain in the rain and SCREAM

and when i'm in town we will kiss.....