i wonder if i'll ever really be into livejournal again.
probably not.
kat and i are talking a lot about livejournal right now so i'm posting an entry.
i'm in an unrequited love situation. i am the one in unrequited love. it's interesting...i'm not used to it. i don't really know what to do with it, to be honest. it humbles me...and it's made me remember that i can feel. i wondered for a long time after ed if i'd ever feel deeply for someone again, and it's comforting to know it's possible, even if unreturned.
of course the first guy i have serious feelings for in two and a half years is fresh out of a long term relationship and completely emotionally unavailable.
i haven't even tried. in a few little ways, i suppose. but no grand gestures. they would go unrecognized or worse, directly rejected. thanks but no thanks.
there's just too much life left out there for me to be overly concerned about any of this right now. i'm going to be all over the place in the next five years. my life will not know stability, so why bother?
...that's not to say if the opportunity arose i wouldn't take it. but it does make me feel better.
this may have just been gibberish for the general population, but i'm fairly certain no one reads this..and if anyone does they probably don't have much connection to my current life.
love you, bye.
(i'm not going to even try to write an entry about michael cyr. it's just too much, really. but i love him dearly, past and present tenses...and i will miss him. now the documentary will have to be a two-parter.)
kat and i are talking a lot about livejournal right now so i'm posting an entry.
i'm in an unrequited love situation. i am the one in unrequited love. it's interesting...i'm not used to it. i don't really know what to do with it, to be honest. it humbles me...and it's made me remember that i can feel. i wondered for a long time after ed if i'd ever feel deeply for someone again, and it's comforting to know it's possible, even if unreturned.
of course the first guy i have serious feelings for in two and a half years is fresh out of a long term relationship and completely emotionally unavailable.
i haven't even tried. in a few little ways, i suppose. but no grand gestures. they would go unrecognized or worse, directly rejected. thanks but no thanks.
there's just too much life left out there for me to be overly concerned about any of this right now. i'm going to be all over the place in the next five years. my life will not know stability, so why bother?
...that's not to say if the opportunity arose i wouldn't take it. but it does make me feel better.
this may have just been gibberish for the general population, but i'm fairly certain no one reads this..and if anyone does they probably don't have much connection to my current life.
love you, bye.
(i'm not going to even try to write an entry about michael cyr. it's just too much, really. but i love him dearly, past and present tenses...and i will miss him. now the documentary will have to be a two-parter.)