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sometimes i think i'm real fucked up. i'll have a sort-of relationship with someone, and i don't want them to be gone, but i don't want to be their girlfriend either. it's really a terrible position to put a person in. committment is fucking awful. making someone your boyfriend means that eventually they have to be your ex boyfriend, so i just don't see the point. fucked up. but hey, not really anything i can do about it.