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so where to even being? well i guess with the begining.
friday i went to tracy's and junk and stayed there for awhile then i had to go to kohls and get clothes to wear to Jason's funeral....then i went home. i was gonna go over and help jesi pack up all of jasons stuff but she called at like 10 pm and i was across the street.
saturday i got up and go around to go to Jasons visitations. i got to jesis and kory, me, jesi and ricki left. we got half way there and jesi said she didnt want to go, can you blame her? we got there and jesi and ricky went in first and they were in there for almost a half hour, then we (her mom and rickis dad and mom and step dad and me and kory) went in. it was so hard to see him like that. just looking at him expecting him to open his eyes and everything. so after a lot of crying and more crying, people started to come. about 7 times jesi just came up and hugged me and cried on me. it was just so hard.
danielle and molly came and i realized how much i miss my danini. even though it was a sad day one moment that lightened the mood a little was when kory (who is way beyond shy(worse than me okay)) came over to me and danielle and goes to danielle "your one of jesi's friends then?" and shes like "you dont remember me do you?" and hes like "uh...oh....crap" and shes just like "i went with you ricki and jesi to see 'saw' remember" and he goes "oh yeah now i do that was like a long time ago" lol and then i go "hey kory i am one of jesi's friends too just in case you didnt remember me" and he goes "yeah i knew that" lol my mom and tracy came for a little bit, and it was just such a hard day. i have been to other funerals and visitations and this one was just harder than all the others.
when it was all over me jesi ricki and kory all went to ricki's grandmas and had cake and snack stuff. and his cousin aaron is really really really funny. then we went back to their house and ricki and kory took all of jasons stuff to robertas and i had to go babysit. and i found out that jesi's day only got way worse because her dad got a phone call that her cousin had died that day in a car accident.....so everyone please pray for jesi and ricki and all of them....
sunday i got up and played with devin and courtreezer for awhile and then at like 1130am ish i went to leave only to come to find that i had locked my keys in my car. so me and jeff went out there and tried to get into the car. we were able to get a hanger into the car but we couldnt get it to push the button or pull the lock. so after like an hour and a half i called my mom and got all the AAA stuff and jeff was writing down the address so i could call AAA and all the sudden there i a knock on the door and its their neighbor from down the road with a universal break into your car guide thing with tools. so we went out and like 10 mins later i had my car open lol.
so i finally got home at a little after 1 ish i think. then we got a ton of stuff around for our superbowl party. my dad got a big screen tv for free so we had it in the garage and everything. it was fun. then bobert had me make up this chart thing and we did 50 cent squares i spent $5 lol and in the 1st quarter i won $12.50! lol. so then after that was all done i came in and went to bed later lol.
monday i got up and went to school and then went over to jesi's and changed for Jasons funeral....then me her kory and ricki set off. we got there and at 3 we all went in (it was a private service and it was only jesi's mom and dad, rickis mom dad and step dad brother and sister, his g-ma and his other g-ma (or great grandma? not sure) then me and kory) it was so sad in there. then we went out into the other room and i looked over at kory and he was crying and i just wanted to hug him (and i just wanted a hug cause i was sad too) but i dont know him well enough so i didnt, but now i wish i had. then after everyone said goodbye to Jason. jesi, ricki, me, and kory met his mom and step dad and jesi's dad and rickis brother and sister at red lobster and had lunch.
ricki's siter (from out of state) took a pic of jesi and her dad and ricki with his mom and step dad and brother and then she looked like she was gonna take one of kory so i like moved my chair a little outta the way and she goes "you two are so far apart i can see the waitress between you" and i was like "oh you want me in the picture too?" and everyone was like "oh just do it" and jesis like "it's just a picture it doesnt mean anything" so i moved my chair over by him and he moved him toward me and like we leaned in to like get the picture and he put his arm around me and everyone was all like "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH" ans junk....and then rickis mom was like "a minute ago it didnt mean anything" and kory was all like "yeah and now it means EVERYTHING!" oh lord. and to top it all off, she had to take two pics. haha
so then the four of us went to the mall. and walked around and stuff jesi got a lava lamp and ugly shoes and ricki got a video game then we went back and then me and jesi went to walmart cause she needed a suitcase cause she has to go to pennsylvania for a week for her cousins funeral. then we went back to her house and she was telling ricky that the 90's edition of trivial pursuit was only 20 bucks so then we went back and bought that then we came back again and started playing it and at like 10pm only ricki and jesi each had one wedge lol so we quit and went to taco bell.
then we came back and ate, and then just sat around talking and stuff. then at like 12 kory left and i left at about 1230.
then this morning i get up and my mom was like mad at me for being out that late and im like sorry that i wanted to be with my friend who is going through hell right now, sorry. and then she has the guts to ask me if i was drinking last night! I HAVE NEVER DRANK IN MY FRICKEN LIFE! and her excuse was that she figured i was because when she called me at like 10ish she heard them in the background being loud. nope sorry okay kory and ricki are fricken 25 and they didnt even drink last night so yup i got smashed then drove home, and wasnt even the slightest bit hung over this morning *rolls eyes* yup cause we thought that we would all just get drunk and have a party after the funeral. not maybe that me and kory where staying there with them to ya know keep their minds off of it for a little bit and let them have a little fun and relax a little.
but whatever. she can think that all she wants i know what i do and dont do and she has absolutly nothing to be worried about at all so whatever.
i changed my layout i really didnt want to but whenever i looked at the pictures of jason i just wanted to cry, so i had to change it. but its not staying this either because i want a whole harry potter one but i havent made it yet. people need to step back and realize how fricken self centered they are right now. its really sad and it makes me wonder if they notice or not? and if you actually read this far and read that i was trying to hid that sentance so no one would find it.
so thats about all i can think of. all in all it was an okay weekend, i know that sounds wrong with everything that happened, but Jason is in a better place, in no pain, no suffering, he is in Heaven and doing wonderful. we at least have to be a little happy about that fact.
friday i went to tracy's and junk and stayed there for awhile then i had to go to kohls and get clothes to wear to Jason's funeral....then i went home. i was gonna go over and help jesi pack up all of jasons stuff but she called at like 10 pm and i was across the street.
saturday i got up and go around to go to Jasons visitations. i got to jesis and kory, me, jesi and ricki left. we got half way there and jesi said she didnt want to go, can you blame her? we got there and jesi and ricky went in first and they were in there for almost a half hour, then we (her mom and rickis dad and mom and step dad and me and kory) went in. it was so hard to see him like that. just looking at him expecting him to open his eyes and everything. so after a lot of crying and more crying, people started to come. about 7 times jesi just came up and hugged me and cried on me. it was just so hard.
danielle and molly came and i realized how much i miss my danini. even though it was a sad day one moment that lightened the mood a little was when kory (who is way beyond shy(worse than me okay)) came over to me and danielle and goes to danielle "your one of jesi's friends then?" and shes like "you dont remember me do you?" and hes like "uh...oh....crap" and shes just like "i went with you ricki and jesi to see 'saw' remember" and he goes "oh yeah now i do that was like a long time ago" lol and then i go "hey kory i am one of jesi's friends too just in case you didnt remember me" and he goes "yeah i knew that" lol my mom and tracy came for a little bit, and it was just such a hard day. i have been to other funerals and visitations and this one was just harder than all the others.
when it was all over me jesi ricki and kory all went to ricki's grandmas and had cake and snack stuff. and his cousin aaron is really really really funny. then we went back to their house and ricki and kory took all of jasons stuff to robertas and i had to go babysit. and i found out that jesi's day only got way worse because her dad got a phone call that her cousin had died that day in a car accident.....so everyone please pray for jesi and ricki and all of them....
sunday i got up and played with devin and courtreezer for awhile and then at like 1130am ish i went to leave only to come to find that i had locked my keys in my car. so me and jeff went out there and tried to get into the car. we were able to get a hanger into the car but we couldnt get it to push the button or pull the lock. so after like an hour and a half i called my mom and got all the AAA stuff and jeff was writing down the address so i could call AAA and all the sudden there i a knock on the door and its their neighbor from down the road with a universal break into your car guide thing with tools. so we went out and like 10 mins later i had my car open lol.
so i finally got home at a little after 1 ish i think. then we got a ton of stuff around for our superbowl party. my dad got a big screen tv for free so we had it in the garage and everything. it was fun. then bobert had me make up this chart thing and we did 50 cent squares i spent $5 lol and in the 1st quarter i won $12.50! lol. so then after that was all done i came in and went to bed later lol.
monday i got up and went to school and then went over to jesi's and changed for Jasons funeral....then me her kory and ricki set off. we got there and at 3 we all went in (it was a private service and it was only jesi's mom and dad, rickis mom dad and step dad brother and sister, his g-ma and his other g-ma (or great grandma? not sure) then me and kory) it was so sad in there. then we went out into the other room and i looked over at kory and he was crying and i just wanted to hug him (and i just wanted a hug cause i was sad too) but i dont know him well enough so i didnt, but now i wish i had. then after everyone said goodbye to Jason. jesi, ricki, me, and kory met his mom and step dad and jesi's dad and rickis brother and sister at red lobster and had lunch.
ricki's siter (from out of state) took a pic of jesi and her dad and ricki with his mom and step dad and brother and then she looked like she was gonna take one of kory so i like moved my chair a little outta the way and she goes "you two are so far apart i can see the waitress between you" and i was like "oh you want me in the picture too?" and everyone was like "oh just do it" and jesis like "it's just a picture it doesnt mean anything" so i moved my chair over by him and he moved him toward me and like we leaned in to like get the picture and he put his arm around me and everyone was all like "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH" ans junk....and then rickis mom was like "a minute ago it didnt mean anything" and kory was all like "yeah and now it means EVERYTHING!" oh lord. and to top it all off, she had to take two pics. haha
so then the four of us went to the mall. and walked around and stuff jesi got a lava lamp and ugly shoes and ricki got a video game then we went back and then me and jesi went to walmart cause she needed a suitcase cause she has to go to pennsylvania for a week for her cousins funeral. then we went back to her house and she was telling ricky that the 90's edition of trivial pursuit was only 20 bucks so then we went back and bought that then we came back again and started playing it and at like 10pm only ricki and jesi each had one wedge lol so we quit and went to taco bell.
then we came back and ate, and then just sat around talking and stuff. then at like 12 kory left and i left at about 1230.
then this morning i get up and my mom was like mad at me for being out that late and im like sorry that i wanted to be with my friend who is going through hell right now, sorry. and then she has the guts to ask me if i was drinking last night! I HAVE NEVER DRANK IN MY FRICKEN LIFE! and her excuse was that she figured i was because when she called me at like 10ish she heard them in the background being loud. nope sorry okay kory and ricki are fricken 25 and they didnt even drink last night so yup i got smashed then drove home, and wasnt even the slightest bit hung over this morning *rolls eyes* yup cause we thought that we would all just get drunk and have a party after the funeral. not maybe that me and kory where staying there with them to ya know keep their minds off of it for a little bit and let them have a little fun and relax a little.
but whatever. she can think that all she wants i know what i do and dont do and she has absolutly nothing to be worried about at all so whatever.
i changed my layout i really didnt want to but whenever i looked at the pictures of jason i just wanted to cry, so i had to change it. but its not staying this either because i want a whole harry potter one but i havent made it yet. people need to step back and realize how fricken self centered they are right now. its really sad and it makes me wonder if they notice or not? and if you actually read this far and read that i was trying to hid that sentance so no one would find it.
so thats about all i can think of. all in all it was an okay weekend, i know that sounds wrong with everything that happened, but Jason is in a better place, in no pain, no suffering, he is in Heaven and doing wonderful. we at least have to be a little happy about that fact.