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why was today so terrible? or rather, why do i feel like such shit?
I dunno...maybe it's b/c chrstina always kept me in a good mood and now she's gone. I felt so lonely today. I did good on my solfege test this morning, but then everything else today was crap. I cried in my lesson. I couldn't believe myself, I was embarassed, I've never cried in front of Sanders before. It was bad. I just felt so crappy because I practiced so hard all week, only to suck it big in my lesson. :-( So, i have decided to take the next few days off from the clarinet. I'm just getting too wrapped up in things and i just need to get away and relax. I just get so worked up about everything, and everything ends up happening the reverse way I want it to.
but fuck it. life is too short to get this upset over these things. and plus, i'm hanging out with liz and bri and the boys tonight...so I know i'll be feeling good by then. hah.
I dunno...maybe it's b/c chrstina always kept me in a good mood and now she's gone. I felt so lonely today. I did good on my solfege test this morning, but then everything else today was crap. I cried in my lesson. I couldn't believe myself, I was embarassed, I've never cried in front of Sanders before. It was bad. I just felt so crappy because I practiced so hard all week, only to suck it big in my lesson. :-( So, i have decided to take the next few days off from the clarinet. I'm just getting too wrapped up in things and i just need to get away and relax. I just get so worked up about everything, and everything ends up happening the reverse way I want it to.
but fuck it. life is too short to get this upset over these things. and plus, i'm hanging out with liz and bri and the boys tonight...so I know i'll be feeling good by then. hah.