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Is it really so fucking hard for her to just hang up the phone? she's so fucking annoying, and then dad gets all pissed off and self-righteous thinking he's saving her from my wrath or some shit, because i go in there and tell her not to always ask who it is on the phone and cut in on my conversations and then he says i always speak so fucking meanly to her or something, like i'm the devil incarnate whenever i'm with her. ffs, even if i fucking was it would be pretty normal anyway and yweah i get mad sometimes but is that really my fault all the time? and then he goes "get out of here" like i'm some fucking dog that he can shoo off so i go and he calls sarah down to tell her about how fucking wonderful she is and how she should try not to be affected by me. and oh, this is a few hours after he says he's going to be sensitive to the fact i'm having a hard time right now, and blahblahblah like i'm a stupid dog too. So, excellent. my dad thinks i'm a fucking stupid bitch, in the literal sense as well. excellent. i feel the love. he doesn't even fucking see me in the car with her. they don't even fucking care when i'm "nice" or whatever, they completely ignore it and they don't even acknowledge that i never yell and i never scream and sometimes she's a little bitch herself and needs to change some shit. don't they realize? god, am i really a bad person? i'm not, i'm a good person and i am with her too but my own parents don't believe it. ffs, if they weren't so submerged in their jobs and money maybe they'd fucking notice some of the things i do for them. of course they don't, i'm just the bitchy fat maid with dropping grades who's completely disappointing them. fucking excellent, i love my family.