God help the youth in troubled times.
So I don't know what to do about Sean.. I love him for what I know about him, I mean he's so fantasic... But we only talk on the phone and I hate talking on the phone but I need to talk to him to make it through the day but I don't want to talk to him when he calls cause i'm always with friends and I don't like ignoring my friends.... And I can't do both at once cause god only knows I don't have an attention span.
He's visiting Monday..I'm so fucking happy about that. I can't wait... Maybe then I can explain to him that I love him so much...I just hate the phone.
I really hope he understands and we can work this out....
I need him more than he needs me....And I know that for a fact...But I can't tell him that cause I'm scared he'll be scared off....
I also found out the other day...I do believe in God... Well a god. Just not anyone else in the world could understand....Except for Jenni.... And Richard but I can't have him right now...Right here... And lord only knows that if Richard wasn't locked up I would never have even thought about Sean....(in some ways I'm glad I met sean...But in a lot of ways I just want my Richard back...I feel like I'm replacing him...) But anyway...
Jenni gets me better than anyone that I know... And I wish the people I knew that disliked her could understand that....She's not perfect...But she's the best friend that I have...The best friend I could ever ask for. She's as imperfect as I am... And I love her for it.