I feel insane.
So many serious conversations today. My brain feels sort of overloaded with emotions and it's making me ready to go to bed at 9pm. I don't know what to do about next semester or next year or the rest of my life or anything. I thought I had decided to stay but then I feel like it would just be better to go to Parkland and take care of the rest of my gen eds because I am so behind. Turning this semester into a sampler of all of my interests was good for my sanity, bad for my college requirements. Also bad for my sanity because instead of narrowing my focus, now I just want to do everything. So really just bad all around, even as much as I love all my classes (except for reviewing the arts, but just because it is annoying and on Monday nights).
Sometimes I feel like quitting college altogether and just trying to get a low-level job somewhere related to my interests and then working my way up like that. If I quit now then I can get a head start.
Also sometimes I consider forgetting writing and going for acting, which is a terrible idea but I really really really love it. Acting just makes me really happy and people in my class say I'm good, despite what Ridenour lead me to believe.
I just feel confused. Super duper confused.
Although I am really excited about my Psych spec script that I'm writing for TV class. I wrote 8 pages of it in one day. And I even like all of those pages.
However, even if I figure out what I'm doing with my life, that still doesn't solve the fact that I have like 3 friends I like hanging out with at home and one friend I like hanging out with (sometimes) in college. I'm getting pretty lonely but I don't know how to make more friends. How do people make friends? This is ridiculous.
I just remembered that I have a review due for reviewing the arts tomorrow. So either I write a review of Maroon 5 or I fix up my review of Antony and Cleopatra. I don't really care about the class anymore, but I do feel like I have to live up to my last review, which was apparently one of the best in the class. I'm not sure I feel that way about my Antony and Cleopatra review. I got an A- on it for acting but he didn't really say it was fantastic. I think I just did well because I covered everything on the rubric (except for "what did I learn that I can apply to my own work?" which is why I got a - instead of a +).
I'M DOING WORK NOW.
Sometimes I feel like quitting college altogether and just trying to get a low-level job somewhere related to my interests and then working my way up like that. If I quit now then I can get a head start.
Also sometimes I consider forgetting writing and going for acting, which is a terrible idea but I really really really love it. Acting just makes me really happy and people in my class say I'm good, despite what Ridenour lead me to believe.
I just feel confused. Super duper confused.
Although I am really excited about my Psych spec script that I'm writing for TV class. I wrote 8 pages of it in one day. And I even like all of those pages.
However, even if I figure out what I'm doing with my life, that still doesn't solve the fact that I have like 3 friends I like hanging out with at home and one friend I like hanging out with (sometimes) in college. I'm getting pretty lonely but I don't know how to make more friends. How do people make friends? This is ridiculous.
I just remembered that I have a review due for reviewing the arts tomorrow. So either I write a review of Maroon 5 or I fix up my review of Antony and Cleopatra. I don't really care about the class anymore, but I do feel like I have to live up to my last review, which was apparently one of the best in the class. I'm not sure I feel that way about my Antony and Cleopatra review. I got an A- on it for acting but he didn't really say it was fantastic. I think I just did well because I covered everything on the rubric (except for "what did I learn that I can apply to my own work?" which is why I got a - instead of a +).
I'M DOING WORK NOW.