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Kind of related to my last post, but I'll say it anyways.
I no longer fear growing up. Though I am always a kid at heart, nothing seems more appealing to me right now than getting a fulfilling job, reading the news, living in my own home, up at 7, drinking coffee, kissing my lover goodbye when I'm out the door for work. Not needing to rely on being intoxicated in order to have fun. I've learned soon enough that it's not me. I like to sit back and watch the clouds, not fill my head so that I can barely see them.
I'm attempting to be healthier, perhaps not in what I consume at all times, other than a daily vitamin ritual I've only started a couple days ago. I'm taking advantage of my car-less situation by riding a bike places and trying that out for the first time today made me feel much more free and less bound to this shit dorm building. I may be getting a job working with children in need, and I think I am more than up for it. It would be an amazing first job. I'm actually doing schoolwork again, and I am starting to think about new personal art projects I want to start for the first time in a long time. I'm in the running to perhaps be hired as an illustrator for an upcoming children's book, and plan on applying for more commission work. I'm sick of waiting around, kicking shit, and bitching about how my life hasn't moved forward. It's really up to me to get things going. That's all.
Oh, and R.I.P. corolla. apparently its too damaged to bother being repaired and will have to get a new one. I feel like I just miscarried.
I no longer fear growing up. Though I am always a kid at heart, nothing seems more appealing to me right now than getting a fulfilling job, reading the news, living in my own home, up at 7, drinking coffee, kissing my lover goodbye when I'm out the door for work. Not needing to rely on being intoxicated in order to have fun. I've learned soon enough that it's not me. I like to sit back and watch the clouds, not fill my head so that I can barely see them.
I'm attempting to be healthier, perhaps not in what I consume at all times, other than a daily vitamin ritual I've only started a couple days ago. I'm taking advantage of my car-less situation by riding a bike places and trying that out for the first time today made me feel much more free and less bound to this shit dorm building. I may be getting a job working with children in need, and I think I am more than up for it. It would be an amazing first job. I'm actually doing schoolwork again, and I am starting to think about new personal art projects I want to start for the first time in a long time. I'm in the running to perhaps be hired as an illustrator for an upcoming children's book, and plan on applying for more commission work. I'm sick of waiting around, kicking shit, and bitching about how my life hasn't moved forward. It's really up to me to get things going. That's all.
Oh, and R.I.P. corolla. apparently its too damaged to bother being repaired and will have to get a new one. I feel like I just miscarried.