i miss him...i wish he were here with me...
IM REALLY FIRED UP! IM pissed off! ok, sum things were said last nite to me I told Anna, and what gets to me the most is a person that has a loud mouth! BS! I'm tired of everyone honestly I dont know what I'm going to do anymore, I DONT wanna be here anymore! IF its not her its my parents or someone I HATE THIS! I'm through with people, shes so selfish doesnt take into consideration about other people, she only thinks about herself. I HATE HER! grrr, right after I typed that I regreted it, but I hope that you guys can understand why I'm so upset, I think that we're going to stop talking, I really do. I mean I cant deal with ALL this drama! I HATE LIFE! I dont know what to do anymore, its always the same story with me theres always something going on in my life, I cant deal with this. I've been loosing all of the ppl I care about lately. Anna and sumone else..
Ok, so today I was thinking about my friend that got killed, the one that helped me that nite, if it werent 4 him i wouldnt be sitting here typing this out 2 u guys. I MISS HIM SOO Bad! But I know that hes in a safer place now, not dealing with all this that Im dealing with. He was the most awesome guy that a person could ever meet! he was older than me of course I was in eighth grade and he was a junior. I loved that guy though, honestly he was a big role model to me, yea we got in sum trouble but nonetheless he was always trying to guide me down the right path and I love him for that, I always remember him! I wish he was there the nite I graduate I know in the last entry I wrote something felt incomplete in my life with graduation coming up well I think there are two things. Him my friend Adrian that was killed, and Raul the guy that Im in love with still...
OK,well I know that u guys mite be kinda curious to know bout my friend, well here I go again opening myself up to get hurt...hmmm...Well I was about 13 yrs old he was 17 and his name was "George" (not using real names) , he helped me in so many ways, the way we met, we were both in the same "crew" aka "gang" stupid yea I know, well you know how those things start all this drama stuff...well we were at my other friends house and we were just there in the front, and the day b4 sum of the other guys from the "gang" had jumped another guy from another gang,and well we thought nothing it was a friday nite, we were just there chilling, everyone was drinking, but me, he wouldnt let me drink he always took care of me, never let any harm happen to me. He was sitting on the car, and I was right next to him and this car goes by and well....they start shooting , he threw me to the floor, and right after that...they shot him in the head, he died instantely. It hurts so bad, he saved my life! he was honest when he told me that hed do anything for me! thats something that I will NEVER forget, the thing is hadnt it been for him I wouldnt be here right now, he pushed me down on the floor in time, and the second i hit the floor he was shot. So there it is I've been hurt so much, and raul, and now Anna....
Ok, so today I was thinking about my friend that got killed, the one that helped me that nite, if it werent 4 him i wouldnt be sitting here typing this out 2 u guys. I MISS HIM SOO Bad! But I know that hes in a safer place now, not dealing with all this that Im dealing with. He was the most awesome guy that a person could ever meet! he was older than me of course I was in eighth grade and he was a junior. I loved that guy though, honestly he was a big role model to me, yea we got in sum trouble but nonetheless he was always trying to guide me down the right path and I love him for that, I always remember him! I wish he was there the nite I graduate I know in the last entry I wrote something felt incomplete in my life with graduation coming up well I think there are two things. Him my friend Adrian that was killed, and Raul the guy that Im in love with still...
OK,well I know that u guys mite be kinda curious to know bout my friend, well here I go again opening myself up to get hurt...hmmm...Well I was about 13 yrs old he was 17 and his name was "George" (not using real names) , he helped me in so many ways, the way we met, we were both in the same "crew" aka "gang" stupid yea I know, well you know how those things start all this drama stuff...well we were at my other friends house and we were just there in the front, and the day b4 sum of the other guys from the "gang" had jumped another guy from another gang,and well we thought nothing it was a friday nite, we were just there chilling, everyone was drinking, but me, he wouldnt let me drink he always took care of me, never let any harm happen to me. He was sitting on the car, and I was right next to him and this car goes by and well....they start shooting , he threw me to the floor, and right after that...they shot him in the head, he died instantely. It hurts so bad, he saved my life! he was honest when he told me that hed do anything for me! thats something that I will NEVER forget, the thing is hadnt it been for him I wouldnt be here right now, he pushed me down on the floor in time, and the second i hit the floor he was shot. So there it is I've been hurt so much, and raul, and now Anna....